Lost In Love

Capitulum 4

Capitulum 4

I'm warning you!

Unfortunately, my plan to enter the bar with Laxus didn't come true. Three vodka's na ang nainom ko he said he'll join me tonight, it's already eight in the evening I'm expecting him to come but... Damned him!

I was wearing a ruffled cropped top with a high waist ripped denim short and a beige high block heel ankle strap. Suot ko rin ang aking Chanel wristwatch. My legs were exposed not only because of the size of my short but because of my sitting arrangement where my silky smooth legs were in proper crossed. Ang bagsak kong buhok ay kumalat sa aking likod at mga braso with length up to the bottom of my chest. I swirled the mounted tool to drift my eyes on the dancefloor, marami nang sumasayaw, the counter top has a few people... but I don't think I can make a talked because they were far from me. The couches were also full of men's group but the next to it was with woman.

Binalingan ko pa muli ang relong suot just to see that it's already nine p.m. Damn Laxus! Isang oras na niya akong pinaghintay. One order for Madras cocktail uuwi na siguro ako maya-maya.

At my younger age, going to the bar almost every night is a nightmare to my Dad. Namulat ako sa ganitong buhay, even if it's forbidden for me, I get used to it until I couldn't get rid of it, as if it's my drug and I don't think I can live a life without my whims. Pasaway ako at maaaring higit pa roon. Ganon pa man, I can't let Dad know about it dahil ang itigil ito ay ang mas mahirap.

When I was in my grade school, Dad always spanking my butt because of being so naughty of me. There are times when he uses waist belt to spanked me hard everytime I go home late in the evening. Mas madalas ako noon sa ibang bahay kaysa sa'min bukod sa malapit ako sa mga lalaki marami rin talaga akong manliligaw kahit kay bata ko pa, to be honest, ni hindi ko sila halos mabilang, may mga kaedad ko lang meron din namang medyo matanda ng kaonti that's why Mommy didn't like it kaya naman nang malaman iyon ni Daddy ay mas lalo niya akong pinagbabawalan.

But honestly, I really don't like boys because I knew they will cause a bile in my throat. Xavier know that... but because he obtained my trust I let him be friends with me. Kung tutuusin bata pa lang ang edad ko but my mind aren't. Mas maalam pa ako kaysa sa mga dalaga noon.

I got inclined reading books, and most girls there don't believe in love. Sa dami nang naranasan nilang sakit, natututunan mo rin kung paano masaktan gaya nila. Boys were wiser and arrogant. They thought girls just an extra baggage, claim it and leave afterwards. Kaya naman ayoko sa mga lalaki at hindi rin ako naniniwala sa pag-ibig.

Mas gugustuhin ko pang mag-shopping sa mall at bilhin lahat ng gusto ko, buy a new product in Chanel, hangout with my girl friends to brag. I want to see their reactions towards the things I can have, the things I can afford, and the things I can get even if it costs so much. I don't care about their feelings, I'd rather hurt them with what I have than to see them happy with the things they owned. I will get it and make mine. Huwag nga lang ang pag-ibig.

I am selfish towards the other things but not for love. Very hard when it comes to boys.

Lalong umingay sa dancefloor at dumami na rin ang mga tao. May mga kakilala rin akong nakita. I get back twiddling my fingers and when the bartender took back where his placed nag-order kaagad ako ng liquor sinubukan ko ang isang shot! Halos mapaigtad ako sa pait no'n.

"One liquor please." I heard someone at naramdaman ko rin ang paglapit nito sa'kin.

"Ylyn Zamora?" he uttered and been shocked when he saw me.