jude.
next thing i knew, i was out of the house and in the backyard.jumping in front of a train would be quite pleasant right now.
i wobbled my way through the empty backyard, wondering why it was empty at all. wondering if i was even supposed to be here.probably not.
i hiccuped quietly and blew out a shaky breath.
i could see a blurry figure near the pool across from me. i squinted my eyes and mumbled words i myself couldn't understand, wondering who the person sitting at the edge of the pool was. i frowned. their back was facing me and i decided to approach whoever it was. as i wobbled my way to them i could see the half empty bottle of vodka beside them.
the cup in my hand was getting quite annoying and i just drank what was left, tilting my head back and forcing it down my throat. i shut my eyes tight, shaking my head, dropping the empty cup beside me.
i blinked three times before realizing the back facing me was a male's.
he had a hoodie on and when he seemed to notice me behind him, he looked over his shoulder
and
i
froze.
"leo?" i blinked and licked my lips. my was voice thick.
my head began to spin and i had to briefly close my eyes. i opened them.
"hey jude," he said quietly, turning his head away again, looking at the glistening water of the pool.
"i..i..y-you..." i began, "w-what are you doing out here?"
"i told you i'll come, didn't i?" he said, standing up sharply and turning to face me.
he sounded. . .hurt
and angry.
this sobered me up. crashed bricks on my spine. ran knifes through my skin.
"y-yeah, i-i was waiting f-for y-you--"
he laughed a laugh so hollow and hurt i actually had to blink back the tears. he shook his head, "that didn't look like you were even expecting me. i was right there--practically in front of you but you didn't even see me" he blew out a breath, shrugged, raking a hand through his hair, making his hoodie come off. "you did actually, just for a second..."
i had been so caught up in luke, so caught up in the alcohol and the pathetic fun. leo didn't know anyone here. there was only me.
me.
i was pretty close to dropping dead on the floor as i kept seeing the pain in his eyes that seem to flicker back and forth.
"i-i'm sorry, i thought you wouldn't come. please--"
he sighed, rubbing the back of his neck and turning around and facing the pool again, shoving his hands in his pockets.
i walked closer to him and stopped beside him, several inches separating us.
the swore under his breath. shook his head, his eyes fixed on the glistening water. "i'm sorry. i shouldn't have talked to you like that. it was stupid of me to think you would come alone," he let out a long breath, running a hand through his hair--still not looking at me.
i felt horrible
horrible
horrible
"leo--"
"you don't know what you're doing to me, jude," he said quietly so quietly i felt my heart split clean in half. i looked at him, searching his eyes. they looked so lost, so lost in memories, in things and thoughts i'll probably never know. he was not even looking at me--he still wouldn't look at me.
"w-what are you talking about--"
"you're killing me," and now he was looking at me, piercing his eyes through mine. they were so weighted in something i couldn't put my finger on, "jude...i, " he said, struggling to find the words, "i can't get you out of my head. you're everything i think about. everyday this feeling grows in my chest and it's hard, jude, so hard to ignore..." he laughed, so softly, so quietly, "god, i must be going insane," he whispered, "to crave someone who is not mine," he said it like he himself couldn't believe it. "to crave...you,"
a/n: two pages woah
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Teen Fiction"she took his heart and he ran away." // he was just a boy with a crooked smile and a warm heart. and he loved me, but I loved someone else. {short story #228}