What the hell happened to me?

PLEASE IT HURTS

Jackson went out of the room to go home because his day off was over. He grabbed his bag and left the floor to go home to his warm bed and sleep so he can come earlier tomorrow to see me and try to make me eat. He was walking,  thinking to himself that if there was only a way he could save me before it was too late as Jo came up to him "Hey, any new news on Alexis?" she asked " no, um she said that when she eats it hurts and it feels like the attacker guy was punching her in the stomach and we cant sedate her because if we do she will just have dreams of the guy beating her up more so that's why she doesn't sleep anymore" he replied                      Jo was speechless she didn't know what to do or say "also she is seeing hallucinations of the guy so she will scream and her hand won't stop shaking but if you want to comfort her just hold her hand and sometimes hold both so you get her attention, try and talk to her please she needs help and if we keep listening to her she won't be here with us. Please Jo do something that will help her" he added.                                                                                                                                                               She nodded her head and walked towards my room, she was leaning against the door watching me stare at the same wall I always stared at. I was sitting up straight one hand shaking and the other digging my fingernails into my thigh. My black circles under my eyes grew darker and bigger and my eyes were red and watery. I looked lightheaded and scared, I wasn't moving but all of a sudden I hesitated and looked away and I heard Jo coming in and when she was close enough I grabbed her hand tightly and mumbled " please go away, please go away " Jo was worried. She did as Jackson said, she held both of my hands and told me that it was okay and that I was okay. That didn't really help but I started to hyperventilate and felt really dizzy,  Jo grabbed the oxygen mask and put it on my face, and held my head. My B.P started going up "Push one and a half of diazepam please, okay Alexis try to breathe for me this will help you to breathe okay!" she said as I was passing out.  I passed out for about an hour I woke up screaming and moving around Jo was still here and Bailey was with her. Something was up my nose I touched it to see it was a feeding tube, No! I screamed no, no, no, no, no I started to cry from my pain from head and my tummy.                                                                                                                    Take it out I screamed, "please you cannot do this I'm in more pain now, please take it out I'm begging you," I said crying.                                                                                                                                                 "Alexis listen to me, you need to eat you need to feel - "then ill eat,  ill eat but please take it out" I cut Bailey off. Bailey looked at Jo, and jo looked back at her, she nodded her head up and down and said that she could take it out in the morning, NO I whimpered "take it out now please it hurts" Bailey's pager went off and she looked at Jo and said " Dr. Wilson can do that for you,"  she said as she walked away. "Okay this will make you gag,"  she said as putting on her gloves.      After that was done she left the room to get food. I sat back up to my original place and just stared at the wall-shaking my hands like always.