"w-where am i?" i say waking up in an unfamiliar room.
"you're in my apartment." says a strangely familiar voice.
i jump.
"who said that?"
"i did." a man emerges from the closet. i squint my eyes and soon release its "JAMES ??"
"yes."
"WHAT AM I DOING IN YOUR APARTMENT?!"
"shhh sarah" he says and tucks my hair behind my ear.
i missed the feeling of- no this is wrong.
"james i can't be here." i say, taking the blanket off of me to realize i'm clothingless. i quickly cover up.
"ben undressed you because you got dirt on your clothes when you passed out." james says.
"ben ?? uncle ben. did he see my-"
"you're nipple piercings ?? yes. he's very disappointed and upset."
i slap my hand to my face as james throws me a new dress.
"i have to get out of here." i yell quickly changing.
james watches with a frown. "you just got here. please let us catch up."
"no james. you left me, remember ?? i have places to be. i have WORK a JOB."
"where do you work ?" james asks.
"henri didn't tell you?"
he shakes his head.
i sigh "you don't need to know" i tie my hair up and run out the door and all the way home.
i live in this old lady's basement. she doesn't know i live there even though i have for 6 years. whenever i'm hungry i dig in her garbage because she's really picky so she always throws the food away.
i always wonder why she hasn't gone in her basement in 6 years. i painted the walls and everything.
i reach under my bed and pull out a box. i open it up and look inside frowning. it's full of letters i wrote to james after he left me. i dreamed of what i would say to him ?? would he rail me ?? would i hit him ?? would i even see him again ?? i definitely wasn't expecting the interaction we had. i look in the mirror at my nipple piercings and frown. i can't believe uncle ben saw them, he's probably so disappointed.
i go to bed sad.
