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ni thesilentcommittee

Jennie's Pov

I am currently sitting on a bar stool in one of Seulgi's bar in Gangnam. It's already been three years though. I still regret how i pushed her until she was the one who stopped herself

I never thought that one day she will rushed to my house drunk, crying her heart out. Telling me how she struggled to stop her feelings, how she struggled to get my attention even for once

And me myself ignoring her pain, ignoring her struggle. And i completely regret it. I regret everything. I caused her pain, too much pain

I still remember how she always follows me like a dog through the hallway of the school until god knows where i will go that time. Giving me foods that never in my life had accept it if it was from her

Damn... i still remember how she saved me during our practice where i almost got injured due to my clumsiness causing her to be excused from class for two straight weeks due to her leg injury that if it wasn't because of me it she wouldn't be injured, and yet i still never cared

I still remember how she takes notes for me during the days i was sick and couldn't attend school just for me to know the lessons on those days. How she begged for our professor to give me a special project just to make my grades higher but i just pushed hee away saying i don't need her help when the truth is i really need it

But, what can i do? I liked her. No not just like. I love her. But somebody is threatening me. What can i do? I rather make her hate me than to see her slowly dying in front of me. I wish i have the strength to fight for her but just when i realized it's already late. She gave up

But I'm not mad. I'm not mad when she gave up, that's what i want right?. That's what i want. For her to hate me and to distance herself from me so that she'll be safe from the risk? But why do it hurts?

Why do it hurts? Why do it hurts to see her with somebody, somebody she is now currently courting. Giving her flowers and chocolates everyday. Taking down her notes if necessary, accompanying her through the cafeteria, doing everything she does to me when i was the girl she loves the most

A tear escaped my eyes as i hold the bottle of beer tightly as i also closed my eyes as tight as i can

"Why does it still hurts?" I whispered to myself wiping my tears with the back of my hand

"Why didn't i fight for her?" I added as my vision was getting blurry

I wish, i didn't pushed her away. I wished i didn't ignored her. I wish i could crush the person who is threatening us. I wish i still have the time

I wish i still had a chance

I wish i claimed her first before someone does. I wish i can still claim her

By that i everything went blank

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Author's note:

A short update for today, thanks for reading by the way and please don't forget to vote if you liked this update, good evening

12/02/20 11:27PM