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by thesilentcommittee

by thesilentcommittee

Lisa's Pov

I'm here again at her house, visiting everyday hoping that she had already come back here, to me

I'm still hoping even though it's almost four years without you, my love

I couldn't help but to blame my self for losing you, i'm at fault why i am this lonely and miserable right now

I-i hurt you not once not twice but many times. But you let it passed until you can't take it anymore causing you to give up

We were hiding our relationship for my own benefit, i am dating somebody publicly and dating you privately, we couldn't get out as couple because i have a reputation to care

I hurt you behind your back and even in front of you i'm also hurting you, i was never forced by anybody. That my pure choice, my choice of hurting you

And now it became my greatest nightmare, i lost you. It was too late to realize how much you means to me, its too late to realize that you are my world, my life and my everything. I just realized it when you have already given up, when i already lost you

I didn't realize it earlier, if only i realize it, i shouldn't continue doing that sh!t over and over again. I should be fulfilling my promises that i never fulfilled but instead of doing it, i continued hurting you emotionally

I continued doing those thinks not even minding that i am hurting someone, i am slowly ruining my life, i am slowly losing my world

I still love you, Jennie Kim. I still love you, mandu, i never stopped loving you and i will never stop loving you not in this time

It hurts. It hurts to think that i am the reason why my life is a mess right now but you know what? I'm happy, happy for you even though it breaks me

I'm happy that you finaly found someone that can love you purely, someone who can do more than i can do

"Lisa, you are really pathetic" I said to my self as i let my tears fall

Entering her room, makes me remember the days you and i are still together, the days we always cuddle everything

I walked towards her drawer. Opening it a familiar box fall to the ground

I grabbed it and walk towards her bed making my self sat opening the box

As i saw what it contains, my tears couldn't stop pouring

Seeing a photograph of us being so happy together. It contains plenty of photographs, i scanned all of it until my eyes landed on a paper

I gently grab it and read it

Hi, if you are reading it right now, if you have already found it. I just want you to know that you are the greatest gift god sent me in my whole life even though we didn't last like what we want to. I just want you to know that i always love you, Lisa.

Love, Jennie

I sat on the floor crying, repeatedly reading what she had written on that paper

Even though I can't accept that she loves someone else now, I have to accept it so that I can set you free. But I will never forget that I loved you and will continue to love you. Even if I am no longer the one you love

In another life Jennie Kim, i will make everything right. But for now these photographs will be my memories when we are still together. I love you, my love

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Author's Note:

Short update for today, thanks for reading by the way. Hope you like this update and if you do please don't forget to vote, good afternoon

12/05/20 2:02PM