badboyhalo angst

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TW-SELF HARM

Bad's POV

I finally get out of bed and went downstairs, I groaned remembering I forgot to make coffee last night. I put the coffee beans in (i have no idea how to make coffee, my mom makes it)

I walked up the stairs to the bathroom, and took a shower.

DO IT.
GET THE BLADE.
YOU KNOW YOU WANT IT,
YOU KNOW YOU DESERVE IT.
DO IT.
DO IT.
DO IT.
DO IT.
DO IT.
DO IT.

I sighed and grabbed the blade from the drawer.

SELF HARM STARTS HERE

I set the blade on my skin, I flinched slightly. I dug the blade into my skin, the blood starting to come out (this is so uncomfortable to write- I fucking hate blood) it hurt, but it felt good at the same time.

2 cuts for being annoying.
3 cuts for bothering my friends so much.
5 cuts for being fat.
8 cuts for being stupid.

I washed the blood off the blade and put it in the drawer, after that I put my arm underwater and watch it turn from clear to red.
I got a medkit and wrapped bandages around my arm.

SELF HARM DONE

I walked back downstairs got my coffee, then went back upstairs to talk to Sgeppy.

tell me if i fucked up on anything

vote bc im desperate 😉