do you hate me? | iwaoi

自責の念

iwaizumi stared at the empty seat in front of him. which was once not empty, a dear friend(?) of him used to sit there. but he is not here now. and iwaizumi doesn't know if he will ever be here again,
in front of iwaizumi.
an arrogant guy
a guy that he thought he-
nevermind.

he dug his head on the table and held the pencil oikawa once gave him. it had a little godzilla pendant. oikawa said the godzilla reminded him of him.

he held the pencil tightly as the bell rang. he looked at the texts he send to oikawa.
a single tick and no profile picture.
'there used to be a picture of us..' thought iwaizumi.

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oikawa was staring at his phone.
"maybe i should unblock?" he asked to sugawara.

"if you are that curious maybe you should. but,,,, erase your profile pic so he wouldn't notice."

he did what his friend said. but when he did he saw the words 'typing' under iwaizumi's name.

iwa chan 🦖💙

i know you will never see this

but

i'm sorry.

i'm sorry.

i'm sorry.

you are not selfish, that was me. i was selfish, i still am selfish.

you are not a narcissist person. i didn't know what you were going through. i still don't know but i started to notice. i'm sorry that i was so ignorant. i should've noticed earlier.

and

and i go around thinking that i love you :')

i don't deserve your love.

...

i am the one who is a bad person.

but fuck i missed you so much. how long has it been since i saw you? 3 weeks? a month?

i see your hqgram stories. i see you smiling with sugawara. i am happy that you are happy now.. but

i wish i was him.

i wish i was different so i wouldn't hurt you.

Oikawa saw all the texts Iwaizumi sent. Impulsively, he decided to answer because he didn't want to see iwaizumi hurt like that, he didn't want Iwaizumi to think like that about himself.

shittykawa 🙄👽💞

i feel like these texts weren't meant to be seen by me but

shut up <3

i love you by the way you are

you are not a bad person either
istg if you say that shit one more time i will beat you myself 😤🤜🏻🧑🏻

it happens i think </3 but i am glad you are remorseful 😝 and i'm glad you have come to ur senses 👽

and also.... i think i saw something there..um

"and i go around thinking that i love you :')" aww iwa-chan are you madly in love with me lmfao 🥺🥺

Iwaizumi's eyes widened when he saw the texts Oikawa sent. Wasn't he blocked..??
He immediately called Oikawa. Oikawa picked the phone.

"where are you?"
"uh karasuno, why?"
"can i come?"
"sure.."

Iwaizumi ended the call and left his classroom to go and meet Oikawa.

Oikawa stared at his phone trying to figure out what happened.

"that escalated quickly."
"wait, is he coming here?" asked Sugawara.
"i think so?"
"soo...what are you going to do?"
"it has been a month and i think he suffered enough. also thanks to you i am in a better state mentally and physically so i think i can forgive him now."
"as long as you are happy." smiled Sugawara hiding his pain. He was happy to see Oikawa happy again but it just hurt him.
"i am going to wait outside" said Oikawa and left after hugging Sugawara.

When Oikawa left the classroom, a hand touched on Sugawara's shoulder.

"are you okay?"
it was Daichi.

Sugawara cupped the hand on his shoulder with his hand.
"yes" and smiled genuinely.

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When Oikawa left the building he saw Iwaizumi running towards him.

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SORRY IF YOU WERE HERE FOR ANGST
I REALIZED ANGST WAS NOT MY CUP OF TEA TO WRITE i almost made myself cry writing 🥲👍🏻 so i decided to stop with the angst ckdmjxms