Bail Me Out || L x Reader

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Your P.O.V

I was currently sitting on the roof of the new headquarters. While L held me back, Misa kept yelling about how I was the problem here. How I was the freak.

How I was the monster...

I eventually stormed off and came up to the roof to try to clear my head. It had to be past 9 by now. It was night time. The sky was black and it was beginning to rain. I had spent the past at least 4 hours up on the roof crying. I felt so frail. So...

Fragile...

It was like I was a porcelain glass, just waiting to be knocked over and broken into a million pieces all over again. Maybe she is right. Maybe I am the problem. I mean really what if I am? They probably could've solved the Kira case by now if i wasn't around. All i did was consume their time. Especially L's. When I broke my arm he stayed by my side for almost 4 days.  I should've just stayed at Mesa Springs. Than there, I would at least have Luke to talk to.

𝙏𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙛𝙩𝙤𝙥
𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙄 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙥 𝙗𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣' 𝙗𝙡𝙪𝙚
𝙏𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙢𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙨, 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙗𝙚 𝙨𝙤 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙪𝙨
𝙇𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙤
𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙚, 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙢𝙚
𝘽𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙧𝙮 '𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙄'𝙢 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙣' 𝙨𝙤𝙤𝙣
𝙎𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙘𝙖𝙣'𝙩 𝙨𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙣𝙤𝙬
𝙎𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙄 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙝𝙤𝙬
𝙎𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚'𝙨 𝙣𝙤 𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙤𝙪𝙩
𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙬𝙣
𝙈𝙢, 𝙙𝙤𝙬𝙣
𝙏𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚 𝙢𝙚, 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙖𝙡𝙩𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 𝙤𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙚𝙠
𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙖𝙘𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪
𝙄'𝙢 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮, 𝙄 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙨𝙤 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙙
𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙄'𝙢 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙨
𝙇𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚, 𝙙𝙚𝙟𝙖 𝙫𝙪
𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙚, 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙢𝙚
𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙗𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙧𝙮, 𝙄'𝙢 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙣' 𝙨𝙤𝙤𝙣
𝙎𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙘𝙖𝙣'𝙩 𝙨𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙣𝙤𝙬
𝙎𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙄 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙝𝙤𝙬
𝙎𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚'𝙨 𝙣𝙤 𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙤𝙪𝙩
𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙬𝙣
𝙈𝙢, 𝙙𝙤𝙬𝙣
𝘾𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙢𝙮 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢
𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙄'𝙡𝙡 𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢
𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙄'𝙢 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮
𝘾𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙢𝙮 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢
𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙄'𝙡𝙡 𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢
𝙎𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮

"As always, you have a lovely voice. But that song stands to contradict it hm?" I quickly turned around to see L standing in the doorway of the roof. Alone.

"w-where's Light?" I asked as he made his way to sit on the bench next to me. "I kept him with his father and Aizawa, while I'm away they are to be recorded.'' He says as he sits next to me.

"L?"
"Yes?"

"Am I a monster?"

I hear L chuckle as he turns to me. "Monster. An imaginary creature that is typically large, ugly, and frightening.'' I look at L with an eyebrow risen. "That's the definition. Now, learning that. Do you think you are defined as a monster?" I shake my head. "Well there's your answer.''

"But-''

L cuts me off when he wraps an arm around me. "It's quite cold out here. Obviously due to the temperature drop with the rain.'' I felt myself blush and my body tense up as L pulled me closer into his embrace.

"Now, I know that wasn't the exact answer to your question but no. (Y/n). I do not believe that you are a monster, nor a bad person. You simply have made a mistake like any other person in their life. I understand that you are upset and you have every reason to be. You and Misa both shared some harsh words but I think hers may have been worse. I truly am sorry you had to deal with that. I know that must be hard, especially with everything you've already been through." L paused. "Look at me (Y/n).'' I turned to face L. He gently cupped my face with his two hands.

"You are who you make yourself to be. It doesn't matter what others think of you. You truly are not a monster if you don't believe you are one.''

I finally had an answer. I'm not a monster. L was right. I had made some mistakes but that those were just small bumps in the long road of life. It all depended on how I looked at myself.  I couldn't help but smile at L as he looked at me.

There was something about him in that moment. I just felt drawn to him. Maybe it was the way his eyes shone in the moonlight. Or the fresh smell of Amber around him. Or even the way his smooth hands felt against my face. The next thing I know,

My lips were on his.

At first L looked more than shocked. Maybe even scared. But he surely enough let go, closing his eyes in the process. Sooner or later, i parted from him and looked away. "I'm sorry L, that was uncalled for- I understand if you're mad now or-''

"I actually quite enjoyed it.'' I turned back to L who was now in his regular crouched position with his thumb to his mouth. I couldn't help but laugh. "what?" He asked as he looked at me. "Nothing, it's just you're always so formal when it comes to everything you know?" I said with a smile.

The two of us spent a while up on the roof. I got a genuine laugh out of L. And a real smile. It was nice to see it. It was quite awkward the way he did it but, that's what made it even cuter.

"Hey L."
"Huh?"

"Why do you go by L? I mean, what's your real name? If you don't mind me ask-"

"Lawliet.''

"excuse me?"

"My real name is L Lawliet.''

Huh. I don't know why I didn't just use the Shinigami eyes to figure that out sooner. I guess a small part of me wanted to know by myself.

"So why do you go by L than?"

I soon Learned a lot about L. His birthday was on Halloween. At the age of eight, L was found by and taken to the orphanage known as Wammy's House, a home for gifted children. Sometime after, Watari realized that L had incredible intelligence and later assisted him in his cases. L became a detective at a young, unknown age and eventually gained a reputation as the greatest detective in the world whose opinion is highly valued.

"I promise I won't tell anyone L. You have my word.'' I said as I ruffled his hair. He nodded and stood up. "It's about time we went back inside. Are you ready?"

"I'm Ready."