Fragments of my mind

Hurt

Don't know what to do
Don't know what to tell you
Don't know if we'll still be friends when I'm able to forgive you

I'm too scared
I don't want to hurt
I don't want to get hurt
I don't want your actions to have echoes but they do
They repeat themselves time and time and time again
And it hurts

Today everything is too much
But even if it wasn't this would still hurt
And I don't know what to do about it
You can apologise
You have apologised
But it's not enough
Because it doesn't mean shit if it keeps happening again

I don't need you
I don't owe you
I want you

But I can't hold on to us if it keeps hurting like this
I can't give if I don't get back as much as I need
Then I'll run out
Run out of everything
Everything about me that I love
And I can't risk that