GRIEF 【 宮 治 ー 宮 侑】

𝙳 𝙴 𝙿 𝚁 𝙴 𝚂 𝚂 𝙸 𝙾 𝙽

Izumi attentively watched the clock on her nightstand, and then, it was 12 'o clock.
Her heart raced as she opened the letter that she had kept in a blue shoe box.

Inside the blue box there were various things that Osamu had gifted her on her birthdays, and the last one was this letter.

A letter she hadn't dared to open,
even if she was tempted to do so so many times before.

She would always hear the gray haired male's
voice in her head exclaiming,
"Izumi-Chan! Don't open it, you promised you wouldn't do it! I'll come haunt you earlier than I said I would if you do!"

Izumi chuckled.

October 5th.

A coincidence?

Izumi thought it was strange.

She was born on the exact same date as the twins.

The brunette's heart thumped in her ears like a drum.

ドキドキ　

She felt like a school girl,
smiling giddily at the letter in her hands,
as if it were some sort of confession.
Of course Izumi knew better than that,
but it didn't stop her from pretending only for that moment. 

"Jeez,
I feel like a lunatic when I start to act like this."
Izumi smacked her cheeks,
and willed herself to calm down.

She began to read the letter.

'Hey, Izumi-Chan, happy 24th birthday!
I'm a little bummed that I'll be missing out on this year's party, but, I hope that my absence doesn't ruin the fun.

I bet Atsumu's reading the letter at 12 sharp,
and maybe I have a hunch that so are you.

You two have always been rather impatient.

So, first things first, how are you doing?'

"I'm feeling like a sack of rotten potatoes Osamu.
My grades are horrible, and I've yet to...move on."
Izumi grimaced as she said this out loud.

'I hope that 24 treats you well.
I'm going to miss being able to shove yer faces in yer cakes... would you do it to Atsumu for me this year?
I'm sure Atsumu won't get mad at you, because well it's you, and he never gets mad at you for some reason.'

Izumi furrowed her eyebrows,
"What are you getting at here Miya Osamu?"

'I have a gift prepared for both of you.
It'll probably arrive at my house, well my parents house, in the evening.
I know you guys are spending your birthday there because I requested it.
Can't have my surprise ruined if you guys suddenly changed plans, ya know?

Now, go to sleep mi-Chan.

Don't miss me too much.
I'll always be with you,
right in your heart.

Sometimes, I get scared...
that you and my brother will start to forget about me,
but then I laugh.

That's silly.

Silly thoughts ruin lives.

Why must we plague ourselves with questions of the future?

Living in the present is such a beautiful gift,
and I know that now better than anyone else.

Don't let fear overtake you,
You're full of passion,
of dreams,
and harbor so much love that you want to give.

Don't be afraid to love again.
You only live once.
There are no do overs.

I wish for you all the happiness in the world.
You always have and always will hold a special place in my heart.

This is goodbye, dear mi-Chan.

but maybe someday we'll meet again.'

(P.S. this probably seems like
a lot of mumbo jumbo all together but
I really had a lot of things to say
and this paper was too small for my
handwriting).

Izumi groaned.

"Miya Osamu,
Why are you such a sweetheart even after ...
your death."
Izumi had said it for the first time.

She had finally acknowledged it.

Not as it, but as death.

The girl buried her face in her pillow.

She would drown in her sadness,
for one more night.

She remembered the shock, the denial, the anger.

All these emotions came crashing down on her,
And they opened the faucet of tears.

His death was finally sinking in.

His absence had become far too great to ignore.

For time created distance between them.

A distance that would continue to grow,
because her life would go on,
without him.

Izumi was startled when she heard her phone ringing on her nightstand.
The girl leapt from her bed, and toward the direction of her device.
She wiped her tears away, and answered the FaceTime call.

Atsumu's tear streaked face came into view,
and Izumi's expression softened.

"Hey..."

"Hi..."

Atsumu chuckled,
"Want to get ice cream?"

"Are there even any ice cream
shops open right now?"
Izumi raised an eyebrow.

"Na, but we can go to a convenience store."
Atsumu shrugged.

"Alright. You're picking me up?"
Izumi tilted her head.

"Mhm."
Atsumu nodded.

They hung up at the same time,
and Izumi smiled to herself afterwards.

At least, tonight,
she wouldn't be lonely and depressed.

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A/N:
As promised earlier,
Here's another update~
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