haikyuu boyfriend scenarios

if you died

- LISTEN TO THE SONG WHILE READING! i had it on repeat while i wrote this and honestly i think it fits quite well

𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗮 ♥
- when he first heard the news he dropped whatever he was holding and just stood in shock
- he didn't believe it at first
- "no she was just here"
- "there's no way she's gone"
- "please i just want to see her again"
- he cries
- and cries
- and cries
- he'll never forgive the world
- and he'll always hold a grudge against it
- "she didn't deserve this"
- "she deserves to be here. alive and happy"
- he didn't go to practice for awhile
- but he eventually went back
- saying, "i'm doing this for you y/n. i'm gonna make you so proud"

𝗸𝗮𝗴𝗲𝘆𝗮𝗺𝗮 ♥
- tries to stay away from people for the most part
- but if he does happen to see someone
- he'll just cuss them out and walk away
- "i don't wanna talk to anyone"
- he lost so much sleep
- "i just her back"
- he cries every night
- and he looks up to the sky in hopes you'd just fly down to him
- "i miss you so much y/n"
- "i hope you know how much i love you, and just because you're not here... doesn't mean i'm gonna stop"
- "you're the only person i ever wanted to be with"
- he never gets into another relationship

𝘁𝘀𝘂𝗸𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗺𝗮 ♥
- he lost complete trust in everything
- "she was the only fucking person i wanted.. she's the only person i needed"
- "and now she's gone"
- he cries everyday
- he still tries to keep his crying in private
- but his mom catches him crying over you a lot
- and surprisingly he finds comfort in knowing that someone knows he's crying
- he doesn't want people to think he didn't care about you
- he develops insomnia because he's up all night thinking about what you two had
- he looks at old pictures of all the trips you had together
- "this isn't fair"
- "we still had so much to do together"
- you two had pre-made a scrapbook of all the adventures you were gonna go on someday
- and he looks at it every night, and traces his fingers across the few you already had
- "she's so beautiful" he soaks the scrapbook with his tears
- he sleeps snuggling with your sweatshirt because it still smells like you
- he's just empty and has no motivation
- he doesn't even insult anyone anymore
- he rarely even talks

𝘆𝗮𝗺𝗮𝗴𝘂𝗰𝗵𝗶 ♥
- he's in denial for a long time
- "no she's coming back, i know she is"
- "she wouldn't just leave"
- but deep down he knows you're gone
- and when he finally accepts it
- he lashes out on the world
- he becomes a very bitter person
- he cries a lot
- he doesn't even hang out with tsukishima anymore
- "she made me so genuinely happy, this isn't fair"
- "what did we do to deserve this?!" he screams at the world
- "we were so happy"
- "she was so beautiful"
- "and so kind"
- "why did she have to go?!"
- he blames himself
- even though there is no possible way he could have prevented this

𝘁𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗸𝗮 ♥
- no more funny jokes
- no messing around
- no more fighting
- no more anything
- he's just..
- quiet
- he only talks to a few people
- he doesn't try his best at volleyball
- he talks to you every night
- "i miss you y/n" he smiles with tears in his eyes as he looks up at the night sky
- "i hope you know how much you meant- no, mean to me"
- "i'll never love anyone like i did you"

𝗻𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗼𝘆𝗮 ♥
- he becomes very bitter
- no more jokes
- he's not loud anymore
- he cries all the time
- he doesn't even try to hide it
- if he feels like crying, he'll cry
- no matter where he is
- "hey y/n, how would you feel if i came up to join you?"
- "sorry i shouldn't say that"
- "i just really miss you"
- he visits your grave every chance he can
- and lays your favorite flowers down
- he makes sure to clean your headstone when it becomes a bit too dirty
- every year on your birthday he'll come and celebrate with two pieces of cake and your favorite drink

𝘀𝘂𝗴𝗮𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗮 ♥
- he lashes out on people
- but he'll always apologize
- he sleeps with your favorite hoodie scrunched into his chest so he can smell your scent
- "i miss you, love"
- he'll look at old pictures of you two together
- "wow you're so beautiful" he zooms on your smile
- "you'll always be my favorite person"
- he considers dropping volleyball
- but ends up not because he feels that it would be failing you
- because you were always his biggest fan

𝗱𝗮𝗶𝗰𝗵𝗶 ♥
- he tries his best to continue being a good captain
- but he honestly just feels unmotivated and empty
- he never has the energy to tell at the boys anymore
- he has to ur favorite perfume in his room so your scent can never get away from him
- and when yours runs out, he'll go buy the same exact one from the store
- but he'll never throw your original one out
- he looks at all the old pictures and videos of you
- "i'll always try my best for you y/n"

𝗮𝘀𝗮𝗵𝗶 ♥
- when he first found out he had a panic attack
- "no no that's not true" he falls to his knees
- "this has to be a joke"
- he grabs his phone and tries to call you
- "pick up pick up"
- he starts struggling to breathe
- "no no no"
- "y/n please"
- he has a hard time going to your funeral
- but he does go
- he couldn't live with himself if he didn't go
- he cries all the time
- he talks to you everyday

𝗸𝗶𝘆𝗼𝗸𝗼 ♥
- she cries every single night
- she sleeps in your clothes
- she tried to to drop the manager position
- but the team talked her out of it
- they of course let her take a break
- but eventually wanted her to come back
- she only cries when she's alone
- she screams into her pillow when she thinks of you
- "this isn't fair"
- she loses tons of sleep at night

𝘂𝗸𝗮𝗶 ♥
- doesn't leave his house for weeks
- he doesn't even bother to shower
- or clean up any mess he made
- he ends up actually getting diagnosed with depression
- the team tries to visit him, but he doesn't let them in
- "just go away"
- "i don't want to see anyone right now"
- he tries to be strong
- but he just can't
- the fact that you're actually gone
- and that he'll never see you again
- he can't take it
- he breaks down and cries
- he breaks things
- he screams
- he curses the world for taking you away from him

𝘆𝗮𝗰𝗵𝗶 ♥
- she unintentionally becomes very rude
- but when she realizes, she'll apologize
- she doesn't wear her own clothes anymore
- instead, she wears your
- she's afraid to wash them because she doesn't want to lose your scent
- she wears your favorite scrunchie everywhere
- she actually ends up getting your parents permission to sleep in your room
- and that's where she does most nights
- because she can't sleep in her own room
- she needs your scent to feel calm

a/n: hey