Serenity is struggling. Living with OCD isn't easy, especially when no one knowns about it. Everyday life is a struggle, with constant disturbing thoughts, 2 annoying sisters, stale friendships and frustrating people at school. She checks, writes, washes, touches, waits, hoards, organises, flattens, reads, rewinds, counts. Again. And again. And again. But that's not all. There's deep, dark, revolting, heinous thoughts that invade her mind, the place that no one will ever visit, a place that no one will ever discover. Except for Ivan. All because of one thing: her notebook. But no one knows that Ivan's struggling too... Warnings: - OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) - anxiety - panic attacks - bullying - self harm - insomnia - body dysmorphia - mentions of suicide and suicidal thoughts - depression - emotional and verbal abuse - swearing and mild violence (Seems a bit daunting but it's spread throughout the book and isn't as overwhelming as it looks.) Slow updates but long chapters.