Disclaimer If you want to understand this story go and read the first book; His To Play, if you do all of this will make sense. ~~~~ I remember the day. The day it happened. The day that ruined me. The day that Axel died. I haven't seen him ever since then, they won't let me, they won't tell me why and it pisses me off. I miss Axel, all I want is him to be back with me. I want my boyfriend back. I've been going for therapy, but what does that do. Talking about Axel makes it worse, I don't like therapy. I'm on a bunch of pills now too. I take them accordingly, overdosing doesn't seem right. Every time I try do it something stops me, something in the back of my head. They told me he died, I refused to believe them, but with each passing day I feel like it's true. I want Axel back...I'm weak without him...I'm nothing.