He didn't sound like he meant it. Is he having second thoughts? Is he seeing someone else but doesn't have the heart tell me? Oh god, please not another one. I am not doing this to him. I physically can't. Jack deserves so much better than me, but I can't lose him. I still love him. This time, it's different. This time, I can't give up on my partner. This time, it's impossible. A/N I am forever making changes to this damn summery! #wattys2017 A/N it's 2019 and the above statement is still too true.