Broken Soul

22:45

right now, all I can think about is you
you're my first thought in the morning
and the last at night

you make me feel wanted
you make me feel beautiful
you make me feel special

and most of all, you make me feel good about myself

I didn't feel that way for a long time now
my self-hate disapears bit by bit
everytime
when I'm with you.

and only because of you, I slowly realize that maybe I'm worth it after all
... that I deserve to be happy
... that I deserve to be loved
... that I deserve to live

but how did I deserve somebody like you?
I know that I can be hard to be with sometimes
my negativity can destroy
everything around me,
particulary the people I love.

I never ment to hurt you, I hope you know that
but I'm sorry for all the times I did.
you're my light of an endless dark tunnel

I really hope you feel the same about me
I'm sorry to push you away sometimes
I'm just so scared to get hurt or worse
to lose you

you're driving me insane
I get all these feelings when I'm with you
sometimes I don't know what to do with them

right know a big wave of hapiness hits me real unexpected
I feel like drowning in it, I can't breathe
but I kinda like it

I like the way you make me feel
I like you
... so much that it nearly kills me when you're not around

I could look at you for hours
especially your eyes, I could get lost in them
or to touch your hair is like the best feeling ever

no wait, the best feeling is to just lie on you, with your arms around me,
holding me close and tight,
like you would want to protect me
from every bad thing
that happens
in this depressing world