Broken Soul

04:02

nobody sees me
nobody notices how bad I'm doing
or maybe it's because nobody cares about how I feel
and to be honest? I don't think somebody would understand me

I'm all alone

alone in a room
a room without any light
without any sound
where is the way out?
it's freezing cold in here
I can't see

where is the love?
where is the hapiness?
where is the joy of life?

I've lost sight of the good things in life
everything is dark, even black
so black as if the night sky had lost all of his beautiful stars
not even the moonlight shows me the right way

pain, all I can feel is pain, more pain, sadness and hate
hate in the world
hate for myself
I hate myself for not seeing the good things in life
I hate myself for not enjoying life
I hate myself so much for being this way

all I say or do is never good enough
I'm not good enough
maybe I just don't deserve to be happy, nor to love or to be loved

an open sea, big waves are coming
I can't fight them, I'm not strong enough
I've lost the last bit of hope I had left in me

I feel like I'm drowning, I can't breathe
please stop, it's too much
I can't do this anymore
I'm drowning,
drowning in my ocean of thoughts