𝐂𝐚𝐭, 𝐌𝐲 𝓥𝓪𝓵𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓮

XVI

Cat's POV

I was laying on my bed with Mr. Purple, staring at the wall. I was thinking about lots of things. Sprinkles, how mean Tori was, unicorns eating marshmallows, and the warm fuzzy feeling in my chest. I thought that maybe there was a little bunny living in there, but if there was, I would have heard it snoring at night.

I liked the warm fuzzy feeling, but it was only there when I thought about certain things. Like making red velvet cupcakes, and watching the Titanic, and... Beck. I don't know why, but I have started feeling weird around Beck. He's my bestest friend in the world besides Jade, and I feel normal around Jade, so I don't know why I don't feel normal around Beck. I feel the warm fuzzy feeling around him instead.

I frowned. I didn't know what the warm fuzzy feeling was, though, which made things even more confusing. Maybe it means I'm hungry? I shook my head. That I need to run a mile? No, that's not right either. How about...

My eyes widened. That's not right. That's weird. That's not what the feeling is. I shook my head and got out of bed. I decided to wear my favorite pink skirt, a white shirt with roses on it, and a pink cardigan. I said goodbye to my Nona, who was taking care of me while Mom and Dad were with my brother, and waited outside for Jade to pick me up. When she pulled up, I hopped into her car and put my backpack in the back seat. "Hi, Jade!"

Jade smiled a little. "Hey, Cat." I bit my lip as we pulled up to school. I wanted to tell Jade about the warm fuzzy feeling because she's my bestest friend and she might be able to help me, but I didn't want her to be mad at me. I sighed and she looked over at me. "Something wrong?" I nodded, but I didn't want to tell her what it was. Jade got out of the car, grabbing my backpack, and handing it to me. "Well, do you wanna talk about it?" she asked.

I nodded again. "Yeah, but I don't want you to be mad at me," I mumbled.

Jade smiled a little, which made me frown. This was a serious situation! "I promise I won't get mad at you."

I smiled. "Pinky promise?" She nodded and we locked pinkies. Now she couldn't get mad at me! "Well, you know the warm fuzzy feeling that you get sometimes when you're around some people?" I asked when Jade opened her locker.

"What do you mean? Like, happiness?" she asked and I shook my head. "Love?" I bit my lip and Jade's eyes widened. "Are you in love with someone, Cat?" she asked, grinning.

I put my hands up to my face. "Yes, but you won't like it," I murmured.

Jade pulled my hands away. "Who is it?"

I almost started crying. I don't want to hurt Jade. I'm a terrible friend. How could I do this to her? I'm so stupid. "Beck," I whispered. Jade just stared at me and didn't say anything, which made her look really scary. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen. I think it's been like that for a while but I never noticed, and-"

"Tell him." Jade looked at me and I frowned.

"Whatty?"

She shook her head. "You need to tell him. I think," she sighed, "that he might return the feeling."

I gasped a little. "Why do you think that? You're his girlfriend, not me!" This was all so confusing and stressful.

"I think that when he took me back, part of his heart was already somewhere else. It's not the same as it used to be. We weren't meant to be together. You two might be, though."

"But-"

"Hey, ladies."

I didn't notice that Beck was here and immediately smiled. "Hi, Beck!" I saw Jade drink all of Beck's coffee and giggled. But then he started walking away and Jade shot me a look. "Wait, Beck!"

He turned around. "What?"

This was so scary. I've never done this before. What if he hates me? What if he never talks to me again? Will I be kicked out of our group? "Can I talk to you about something?" He nodded and I hurried toward the janitor's closet. I shut the door, still freaking out, and bit my lip out of habit.

"What did you want to talk about, Kit-Cat?" Beck asked. I smiled a little. He'd used that nickname since we met in our first year at Hollywood Arts.

"Well, um..." I can't do this I can't do this I can't do this. "You know that warm fuzzy feeling that some people give you?" He nodded. "You-you give me that warm fuzzy feeling. And I-I think you have for a while, but I never noticed, and I'm telling you now and you probably hate me because you're dating Jade, but I had to tell you and it's okay if you don't wanna talk to me ever again," I rushed out in one breath. I did it. I actually did it.

I bit my lip and looked up at Beck, who wasn't saying anything. I started to get really scared that he was mad at me and that he would yell at me and never want to talk to me again. But he didn't.

"Can I kiss you?"