Story of uh mY liFe

idk,,

i dated my ex,,
i messed that shit up- i lost my best friend because i saw something immorally correct,, and she cut off all my friends,, messaged my best buddies,, they believed me luckily,, they saw it from an unbiased view,,
but people who i thought would believe me without a doubt just,, doubted,,
i lost someone who i probably was still attached too,, i can't stop crying over losing her and sometimes I wonder if I'm still in love with her so dearly,,
in the end i hurt everyone yet the people i have i can't go to,, the people i have right now feel guilty and i need to help them,,
i wanna have someone to hug me and hold me,, i wanna have a shoulder to cry on but tomorrow's Valentine's Day and icanfjv i need a hug,, i need comfort but I don't even have that,, i wanna cry so bad because i want a different name and a different life,,
I hate myself
I hate myself so much,,
I can't do anything right
I wanna help people but I cant,,