Story of uh mY liFe

Ohmygod idek

Well
At least I know one of you reads this xD
I don't understand,,,
To be fair,
I feel very guilty for liking a girl,, I really like her, she likes having sleep deprived convos with me but the urges I have for this person is something I can't have,,
Because she doesn't like touching aside from hugs,, and man what the heck do I do if I have fantasies???? She doesn't understand kissing or cuddling
Or anything of the sort
And I know I'm a very physical typa person,,
She'd give me head pats,, at least,,
Ngl it kinda hurts a bit,, but hey,, what can I do?
I want to touch her and so many other things... but she doesn't like that...
It's irritating,, because every texts makes me hungry for that physical affection almost...
The least I do is say "you're so pretty and cute"
It's probably because I haven't been talking to her much because of homework,, maybe this feeling will go away,,
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On a side note,, uni!
I got acknowledgment letters from all of them :) but no acceptances yet 😅 still racking as many marks as I can before my calculus and physics hit (YES THEYRE TOGETHER IN THE SEMESTER I WANT TO SCREAM)
SORRY THAT WAS SUCH A BIG CONTRAST FROM ONE TOPIC TO THE OTHER SHFNLDKG IM JUST FEELING A LOT OF THINGS AT ONCE
HAPPY
HORNY
I DONT FUCKING JNOW
IM HAPPY HORNY ANGNENGNGN
👁👄👁💧 ngl i think this is why my online friends call me horknee
See kids (hopefully not children) this is why people get horny easily but cant say shIT TO ANYONE BECAUSE THEIR PARTNER MAY BE ON THE FUCKING ARO SPECTRUM
I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY YOUD WANNA BE WITH ME THEN BUT IM GIVING YOU TIME
well shit
Now I'm depressed
Depressed happy horny person
But yea
Um
Life is well,,
My grades are well,,
Let's just see if I don't waste my parents money,, ahahaha