Story of uh mY liFe

For you, the one who'll never see this

So well,,
Now that's taken care of,,
I guess you can say I,, sort of,,
Well,,
I was enjoying everyone's company,, all friends
Online of course,, until well, we were screenshotting stupid things that either of us said and making them into official quotes on discord,,,
And well,, when you said you needed to sleep
I felt bad,, internally,, I didn't feel like talking
So a few minutes later
I said goodnight to everyone after you did,,
And I went to bed
I still remember how after my daily night reflection of the day
When I closed my eyes
I opened them up in a shock and realized
Fuck I am so gay,,,
Now what?
We were close friends
I didn't wanna ruin this at all,, but now that I realized it, it was so difficult to talk without being so wary of what I said
And it never happened to me before
Until I mustered the courage to confess
You rejected me
Yet I wasn't hurt
Because I was so used to relationship pain it didn't faze me
I went on with our friendship
But for some godamn reason,, you started to tell me you loved me too, right after I told you,,
You must've hated my impulsiveness and I don't blame you
I learned to never chase but this time
I caught myself chasing you, why?
Because you kept making sure I was ok, something I adored, you kept giving me time and letting me go work when I needed to, you kept saying goodnight in a not long paragraph but the affection radiated through
Not only that
You became my best friend in the short time we spent hours talking to eachother
Until,,
My friends insisted,, i tried again,,
Everyone was play flirting in public
You were there
But you were shy,, I hated showing off my flirting,, but they insisted
I was shaking
Sweating
Until they pushed me to send that message asking you to flirt and when you were flattered by the message
I accidentally went all out
I made it sound like a formal proposal,,
Yet you told me "I won't lie, you are perfect for me" yea
That's exactly what you said
And I took it to DMs to make sure
And when the verdict came
I pinned every message
Then we laughed and joked about how we would never flirt in public again
Calling me the most cheesiest person youve ever met
Yet
The funny thing is
2 months later
You wanted to be alone in a private server with our close friends— I find it funny how you kept flirting "on main" but at the same time,,
You liked being alone with me,,
And I know how secretive you are,,
The fact you trust me to be your first
Makes me feel like this time it's worth it