Ryder pov
First day jitters, more like my anxiety shooting through the roof. I've already been here for a week, and still I find it hard to even face strangers again. I should have the confidence an incubus would be proud of, but f*ck if I can't seem to find it. I know I had told y/n that I would be fine and could help out, now, however, I just want to curl up into a ball.
It doesn't help with how hungry I am for some sexual energy, but at the same time the thought of that makes me sick. If I can't get over my past, how will I survive? My way of survival, screwed up because of all the bullsh*t I had to endure.
I am such a mess.
I am a failure to my kind.
An embarrassment.
Pathetic.
I should just-
A soft knock to my door breaks me of my thought. I glance to the wooden structure that keeps me and the one standing outside of it separated. The sight of it is blurry and it is then that I realize that I was crying.
"Ryder? Are you in there?" a sweet voice calls, muffled by the door. Y/n is standing outside my room.
I quickly wipe my eyes and clear my face. There is no need for her to worry about me, she is already busy with other pressing things anyway, I'm sure. I take a few deep breaths to calm down and keep myself from panicking, but it wasn't working. I could feel a panic attack creeping up, and it was difficult to catch my breath.
Another knock came from the door. I almost forgot y/n is out there. I just need another moment to try to get myself under control.
"Yeah, give me a moment!" I give a quick shout to her. I focus back on my breathing, but I am still not calming down.
I decided to just quickly see what she wants and then have her leave, maybe once y/n is gone, it will be easier to mellow out.
I walk to the door and crack it open just a bit. My eyes nearly pop out of my head when I see the outfit she is wearing. I couldn't catch my breath before, I was suffocating now. She looks so beautiful in the modest, yet sexy cocktail dress.
It's a long, one shoulder strap, dark purple dress. There is a slit that comes from the bottom of the dress and runs all the way up to just above the knee. I was in such a conflicting state of hunger, sickness, and panic.
"Ryder? Are you alright? You look a little pale." I hear y/n ask.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just getting ready to work." I say and close my door, or a least try too. I look back at her e/c orbs and see the worry they hold.
Her eyes tell me everything I need to know, the perks of being an incubus. Eyes are a window to the soul and being able to tell what your prey feels and how to correct it helps a bunch when looking for a meal.
"Are you sure you want to take on your problems alone? If you let me, I would love to try and help."
I hesitate for a moment. Every minute, it gets harder to catch my breath and I just want to be alone. In any case, y/n's presence will probably just make it worse.
"Nah, I'll be good." I try and convince her to go. I think it finally worked when I gave her a pleading look to go. She looks down in dejection for a moment before handing me a pill bottle.
'What is-"
"I know someone who helps the non-human population, kind of like a doctor for your kind. I go to him for when we need some medical supplies or medication." Y/n explains as I examine the bottle a little more. She clears her throat and continues.
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Garden Of Eden
FantasyYou own a nightclub that is actually a safe haven for monsters in a world that does not fully accept them. You rescue those in the human and monster trafficking ring, buying them only to turn around and give the poor souls their freedom back. Some o...