Y/n p.o.v
We are pulling up to the studio right now and I told Megan to come at 7 but my session started at 6:45
Matais took a nap earlier and was now just watching his show on his tablet
He didn't hate going to the studio especially when my manager popped in
I walk into the building with Matais and just went straight to the studio
I put him down and said my hellos to the engineer and producer I work with Casper and nova
"Hey guys" I gave them both hygs and matais said hi too
We talked a bit about what I was going to be recording and we set it up
I was going to be dropping an album soon and wanted to get the song ideas I had into a real song
I got into the booth and they started up the beat
(Song~ acid rain by chance the rapper)
Kicked off my shoes, tripped acid in the rain
Wore my jacket as a cape and my umbrella as a cane
The richest man rocks the snatchless necklace
Spineless bitches in backless dresses
Wore my feelings on my sleeveless
My weed's seedless, my tree's leafless
I miss my diagonal grilled cheeses
And back when Mike Jackson was still Jesus
Before I believed in not believing in
Yeah, I inhale, who believed in me not breathing in?
Cigarette-stained smile, all covered in sin
My big homie died young, just turned older than him
I've seen it happen, I seen it happen, I see it always
He still be screaming, I see his demons in empty hallways
I trip to make the fall shorter
Fourth quarter was just a tall order
And I'm hungry, I'm just not that thirsty
As of late, all my verses seem not so verse-y
And all my words just mean controversy
Took the team up off my back like, "That's not your jersey?"
I hadn't even noticed Megan walked into the studio I put my hand up letting them know i was stopping and took off the headphones
They took looked at Megan and said hey "guys can we take 15"
"Yea we'll go grab some food from the store across the street"
They both left and it was just me and Megan in the room
Matais had his headphones in and probably didn't even realize she was there
I leaned against the desk looking at her " I have to tell you something" she said looking over at me with remorseful eyes
I felt a knot in my stomach I was confused and I hate being confused it mad my anxiety go crazy
"The day you left the hotel I went to hang out at a friends house and one thing led to another and we slept together"
It hurt me not going to lie but I took a second to think about it
I was speechless honestly I didn't know what to say and how was I going to tell her I did the same shit
"Umm I ummm that night I went to the club and got drunk and I slept with this girl I met at the bar"
She looked broken and that broke me I seen a tear drop leave her face and I knew this was it for us
We loved each other to much to let go of each other but we were killing each other in the process
I went over and hugged her "meg i want you too be happy that's it, we can't be each other's happiness right now and that's fine as long as your happy I am"
"She wrapped her arms around me and cried onto my shoulder"
"I love you so much y/n" see sat there for a moment and she unwrapped her arms and left
I felt little arms wrap around my leg and I seen Matais looking up at me
"Are uo otay ?" I nodded my head and picked him up
"Yea buddy as long as I have you I will be" I kissed his forehead and placed him onto the couch
Nova and Casper came back in ready to get to work "yo I sent you a different track play that"
He pulled up the song I sent
(Song~ disconnect by 6lack)
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You think I don't know when to call it quits
How could I not know after all this here
I spent so much time tryna find a signal but
It's safe to say it's no good
A nigga need to roll up
No, I don't wanna piss you off
No, I ain't tryna make you yell
Girl why you wanna kick me outta my natural element
No, I don't wanna piss you off
I ain't tryna make you yell
Now why you wanna kick me outta my natural element
I'm tryna work it out
But we got a disconnect
I'm tryna work it out
But we got a disconnect, hey
I really wanted to work shit out with Megan but it's like every time I think we're moving forward we go backwards
Love is not looking over shoulders
Love is you should trust what I told you
Lately it's been like you speaking fantasy and I'm speaking reality
'Cause we got problems, we ain't gettin' over
I think we breakin' up
And not just on some boyfriend-girlfriend shit
I think we had enough
Me and Meg were done for right now and it was for the best I had shit I needed to focus on like getting my career bigger and better
Like, I can't hear you
I'm falling out of love
I'm tryna work it out
But we got a disconnect
I'm tryna work it out
But we got a disconnect, hey
Love is not struggling to tell you, "I love you"
While you sayin' music's above ya
I do this shit here 'cause I need
I need you, but you couldn't see, so
I'm out here, listening to Monster
Heartbreak sponsor, smoking on the ganja, yeah
No, I don't have the time left to care, spare, or share
You'da made Cupid aim away
A bow and arrow could take the pain away
You'da made Cupid aim away
A bow and arrow could take the pain away
But I don't wanna piss you off
I ain't tryna make you yell
Girl why you wanna kick me out of my natural element
Girl, I don't wanna piss you off
No, I ain't tryna make you yell
Why you wanna kick me outta my natural element
I'm tryna work it out
I sat back in the chair for a second and just thought
I just wanted to sleep but instead I knew I had to be on my shit If not for myself then for matais
For V and even for Megan even if I wasn't with her I still loved her
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