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Chapter 5

⚠️Tw ⚠️eating disorder. Ptsd. Shouting. Fainting. Vomiting

You stood up and walked downstairs. You put a smile on your face as you sit down.

'morning kiddo' Phil said happy. Your stomach turned all you could do was nod. Wilbur places a stack of pancakes. You started to shake you try to hide it. Techno gave you a questionable look signalling to your food then back at you

'may I go to the bathroom' you say your voice cracking. Phild noded slightly worried for you. With no hesitation you made your way to the bathroom shaking and feeling sick. Why couldn't you be normal. They are going to hate you. You put your back against the bathroom door. You heard a knock at the door. This triggerd a memory something you wish to never remember..

Flashback /memory.

You put your back against the door covering your ears tears streamed down your face.

'OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR YOU LITTLE SHIT' a drunk man who was ment to be your protector your new father figure. His banging on the door became more violent and so did his threats. 'OPEN THE DOOR OR I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU' you couldn't handle this. You fainted...

End of that flashback /memory

'Y/N ARE YOU OKAY?' you heard Tommy shout. You put your hands over your ears. You hate shouting no question about that. 'YOU MISSED BREAKFAST!' you wipe your eyes and stand up. You take deep breathes and open the door 'there you are!' Tommy says smiling remembering that your not a fan of shouting. Why couldn't he remember this earlier oh well better then never.

'oh yeah sorry not a breakfast person you know?' you say voice cracking hoping he would believe you lie. He gave you a questionable look

'of course...' he said the lie clear in his voice. 'I'm going to talk to dad ill see you later' he said walking away. You return to the room that was assigned yours. You walk over to the window and sit down looking out calming down from your memories and the lies.

'y/n?' it was Wilbur

'come in' you reply calm Wilbur walked in with his guitar in hand he sat down next to you.

'could I play my new song I need someone other then the wall to hear it' he said joking. You nod. He smiles and begins to strum checking its in tune 'its called your new boyfriend' he states proud

Time skip - he's up to the middle as he hasn't finished it yet.

You clap amazed at his talent.' thank you've says proud taking of his beanie releasing his brown fluffy hair he places it on your head jokingly, you giggle before you hear Phil call you for lunch. Shit. Wilbur smiles before standing up and reaching a hand out for you. You take his help and follow him downstairs.

'how come she can wear it but I can't' Tommy says upset about the beanie on your head. Wilbur must have forgotten to take it back

'because Tommy she not a little gremlin child.' wilbur replys. Techno takes your hand.

'cover your ears' he warned you. Your hands covered your ears techno pulled you in your head tucked in his chest and wrapped his arms around protecting you. A minute or two passed 'they have stop y/n' you sit up Philza placed food in front of each of you. You take a deep breath trying to hide your shaking hands. You take a small bite of the sandwich. Sick. Sick. Sick that all you could feel. You stand up from the table and run to the bathroom. Immediately you started to throw up into the toilet. The boys stood at the door mouths open. Philza walked in and sat next to you placing a hand on your back to show support. Techno walked over and tied your hair back.

'thank you techno. Boys go finish lunch ill help y/n' Philza instructed. He continued to rub small circles on your back until you finished. You sat up.

'I'm sorry.' you say a tear rolled down your face. He pulled you in for a hug. Slowly rocking back and forward to help comfort you.

'it's okay. Have you always struggled eating?' he questioned. You nod chocking on tears 'okay. It's not a problem' you lay there for a minute crying.

THIS IS SO SHORT I'M SORRY! I ALSO DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT! IF YOU HAVE ANY IDEAS PLEASE HELP.

SHOULD SOCIAL MEDIA KNOW ABOUT YOU AND PHILZAS NEW CHILD?

Also I'm writing 3 stories at once while balancing school, mental health, family, friends and whatching streams so be patient I beggg!

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