self-portrait of a pendulum

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I.

child

black forest cuckoo clock

sitting on the swings,

what pretensions?

what chains, old blood on silver

what union of palm and rust?


hanging from heaven, there

is a tree line, there

Uranus cries in acid-green;

there is no ground.


but the light swirls out of sight

offstage now still dancing

black forest cuckoo clock

still dancing

                              child

                                                             i cannot let you go

                                                             i cannot let you go

                                                             i cannot let me go.

chained to heaven, there

the darkness ebbs, where

faces rise, there

where Uranus sings,

unwilling

to speak a word

                                   in my clutches.


prison, the sky, the light

the lie, the jar

with heaven. with Uranus

with you and i.

                                                             keep me safe

                                                             keep me safe

                                                             keep me safe.

                                         the jar

i hold it holds me

holding it —

                                 the swings swing

life-giving white zephyr drowning

the swings have me.

                                           (in my clutches)



II.

and that night i brought scissors.

and like they did my umbilical cord

in the first place,

i thought to sever it.

conjoined twin, i & i

rattling specter in a tin can

leap          free, free, free

                      from me.

                                              &            can i let you go

                                                             can i let you go

                                                             can i let me go?

next morning brought me a match

turned gladly to my redwood chest

and the yellowing calendar in its heart

lit, snuffed. lit and snuffed it

again.


Solomon's seal on a tin can.


      now

i have heard the chisel toll against my cheek,

between my eyes (across my brow), carving

like the touch of rain or winter sun.

i, cliff, cavern, treasure.


i have heard the sea-tides come and go

their comings & goings, trick-or-treating hands

caress like spider-silk, linger,

then hold on and pull

                                               a shroud

off corpses of wood and flesh and steel

whales and wrecks adorned in carpets.

crimson-brown-green carpets

line my heart

                              washed ashore

                 your brave new world


swinging       swinging





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