Just Coffee k. akaashi

𝚋𝚛𝗈𝚔𝚎𝚗 𝚖𝗈𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝚏𝚎𝖺𝚝. 𝖺𝚗𝚡𝚒𝚎𝚝𝚢

𝚒 𝚌𝗈𝗎𝚕𝚍𝚗𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝗈𝚙 𝚌𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐.

to anyone, friends leaving for a week or more at a time may seem normal or unbothered even. 

for me, it was as if i had been left

forgotten almost

it wasn't a very welcoming feeling 

i couldn't handle it

"everyone's leaving

you're alone

they're all moving on without you

you are forgettable

they don't love you

they don't 

you're alone

no one cares

you're just annoying"

sometimes i hate my brain

it's mean and anxious at all times

i couldn't think straight

and with all the tears i had, i couldn't see straight either

i couldn't imagine what it would be like to be alone

by myself

i couldn't imagine what it's like to be independent

i was a leech

always depending on others

i was pathetic

i found it hard to find a moment and just 

relax on my own

with him i was

but now he was gone too

granted he only left for a week 

but i just couldn't handle it

not him too at least

i couldn't help but think that maybe he realized life was better without me in it

everyone in my life had already given up on me or left

and something told me that's how it would always be

i didn't want him to do that to me. . . 

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. . .𝚜𝗈 𝚒 𝚕𝚎𝚏𝚝 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝.