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S c a r e d O f L o v e

My whole life everyone has been one giant add for love. Constantly being presented with the unrealistic expectation of finding my prince and living happily ever after. Even my Favoirate book, pride and prejudice, is an add for love. The opening line 'It is a truth universally acknowledged that a single man in possession of a good fortune must be in want if a wife', romanticised love and marriage. Let's be honest though, when has that ever happened? When has someone met someone first try and fallen in love instantly? I know, I know, Cinderella and Snow White had their happily ever after, but what about in real life? No love story is that glamorous and not all love lasts. Aurora found her prince first try, so did Tiana, Snow White, Cinderella, Rapunzle and Ariel, but in real life? You're lucky if you ever find your real prince. Call me pessimistic, but this is what I've learned over the years, all the dates, blind dates, double dates and one night stands all lead to nothing but the ever growing fortress surrounding my heart expanding. But then I met him. I never knew I could be so in love with someone in an instant, but then I met him. Something about him made all those shity dates worth it if I got him in the end. He did seem any different to any other guy I had gone out with, not until I heard the sweet Irish accent leave his tongue when he introduced himself after a mutual friend left us together in a pub. That was the first sign he was different. The next came soon after, he asked me questions about myself, genuinely interested in getting to know me. All the people I had met before were bastards, definitely not interested in me as a person, but what I could be used for. He doesn't, he's different. Everything about him is different. The way he talks, his interests, his compassion, it's all different. After that night we went out again, this time to a restaurant. I've never had so much fun with anyone in my life; I didn't know it then, but I was falling for him, fast and hard. There was something about him and I wanted to know everything about him. Every thought he's ever had, all the nooks and crannies of his body, all the bad and good decisions he's ever made. I wanted to know it all. Soon, we had gone on several dates, FaceTimed every day and texted non stop. I was falling deeper by the minute, not knowing that was happening, but it was. He was breaking down the heavily guard walls of my heart one laugh at a time. I stupidly let him in. Soon, he asked me to be his girlfriend. I said yes, letting him in more and more, leading up to this moment now. When I realised that I had let him in. I never intended for that to happen. I never should have thought with my heart over my brain, but here I was. Sitting on his couch, nestled into him watching 'Mean Girls' together.

"Petal?" I heard, bringing me back from my thoughts and into reality.

"Mmm?" I replied, looking into the sea blue eyes that I had become so fond of.

"What's wrong?" he asks.

"Nothing... don;t worry about it" I lie, not wanting him to know what I'm about to do.

"Well something is definitely wrong, you know you can tell me." I took a deep breath. Not believe I was about to do this now.

"I want to break up." He just looked at me, shocked.

"W-why?" I didn't have a good enough answer for him. I just avoided looking him in the eyes, hoping that would work. "You at least owe me an explanation." I remained silent. "SERIOUSLY?" he yelled. "TALK TO ME!" he started pacing now "You owe me this. You don't understand. I'm madly in love with you Y/n. And you just want to call things off? WHy?"

"Because I'm scared" I mumbled

"What?" he asked

"BECAUSE I"M FUCKING SCARED OK?" I yelled at him. "You're the best thing I've ever had and I don't want to ruin that! So I'm fucking sorry if I'm scared!". He sunk down next to me on the couch.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I've never been so in love or fallen so fast, I don't want to lose you, I don't want to hurt you. So I thought if I pushed you away, it would work."
"You could've talked to me." he said, wrapping me in his embrace. "I've fallen too Y/n, I love you."

"I love you too." I said it with no hesitation, meaning every word. "With all my heart." 

A/n: Hello everyone, I hope your week is going a amazing so far ❤️❤️. First off I wanted to say thank you for over 100 reads, it means so much to me! I never thought I'd get this many!! Second, this chapter didn't turn out how I wanted it so I'm sorry about that, I may rewrite it later if I can figure out how I want it to sound. Also, Harry won a Grammy!! I'm soooo proud of him!! And lastly (I promise I'll shut up after this 😞) tonight Niall is doing the live stream with Guinness - I can't wait!! Anyway have a good week ❤️❤️