Rock, Paper, Scissors

'who the fuck is harry?'-

Penny's face lost colour when I told her about John's accusation.

"Why would she?" she said taking off her glasses. "It honestly makes no sense. There's no motive."

"Exactly," I sighed plopping back down on my bed hugging my pillow. Closing my eyes, my mind drifted back to that night and then back to how I felt in John's arms. "Penny?"

"Yeah, honey?" she replied laying down next to me.

"I think I love John," I finally admitted and it seemed like she wasn't surprised with my sudden confession.

Penny smiled and nodded. " I know."

"But Darna.."

"Doesn't have to know." Penny added quickly. "Don't get me wrong. I love Darna but she can't keep controlling our lives. She does whatever she wants. Hooks up with whoever she wants, but she judges us for wanting to be with someone we love?"

A part of me agreed with what Penny was saying, and it all made sense but I felt talking about Darna like that behind her back. She was a great friend, but just sometimes a controlling one.

"So you think I should tell Miller how I feel?" I asked biting my lip, my heart pounding at just the thought of him.

"Honey, what have you got to lose if you do?" Penny sighed. "If you don't, you might regret it for the rest of your life."

I gulped and then nodded. "What about Dylan? And Darna?"

"Darna doesn't need to know. Do we know where she is right now?"

Penny had a point.

"and Dylan," she continued. "You could just always be friends."

"You're right!" I sat up, suddenly feeling an adrenaline rush sweep over me. I was feeling confident to tell Miller how I felt, and to just forget everything that happened. I believed him when he said he wasn't the one who leaked the video. "I'm going to text him, Penny."

"No, you should tell him this in person!"

"But how am I supposed to go out with this lousy swollen foot?" I groaned.

"Then wait until you're better," Penny smiled and I was going to wait until I got a chance to tell him In person.

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It took another two days for my foot to get better and I was finally back in school. Time was flying by fast and I was looking forward to going to prom with Miller and my friends. And before we would know it, it would be time to go to college. Staying at home, I had spent most of my time texting Dylan and working on sending out applications.

"Welcome back, bish!" Darna hugged me so tight seeing me at school that I thought I was going to suffocate. "It has been dead without you."

"Tell me about it," Penny agreed and I smiled at them. I kept replaying the conversation Penny and I had about Darna in my room and all I cared about was letting John Miller know my feelings before it was too late.

"So I have a plan for prom!" Darna announced as soon as we sat down at our usual lunch table. My eyes darted around in search of Miller only to find myself disappointed. Mona was cozying up to him and I felt a pang of envy in my heart.

"Earth to Sila, Hello?!" Darna and Penny cried in unison.

"Oh yeah, sorry, you were saying?"

"You've been out of it all day today," Darna pointed out. "What's on your mind?"

I glanced at Penny who was biting her lower lip looking at me. I could tell we both were thinking the same things.

"I guess I'm just tired," I lied but atleast it stopped Darna asking anymore questions.

"So as I was saying," Darna continued excitedly. "You and Dylan, me and Harry, and Penny and Micah will rent a limo, get drunk and our little sweet, Sila will finally lose her virginity."

I almost choked on my chocolate milk. "Excuse me? To who?"

"Dylan ofcourse!"

"They're not even dating," Penny quickly interrupted in my defense. "Oh and who in the fucking heavens is Harry?"

"Yeah, who the fuck is Harry?" I asked, glad to have the conversation turned around.

"My new boo," Darna shrugged. "Cam and I broke up."

I rolled my eyes. "Sex may not be a great deal to you, but it is to me. And I'm not going to sleep with someone I don't love just for your stupid little fantasy."

Penny and Darna stared at me open mouthed because I had never snapped at them before. Not like this. I always kept my composure, but not today. I was sick of her trying to set me up with others. I knew what I wanted, who I wanted and I was no longer going to let Darna control me anymore. Maybe John was right, maybe I really didn't know her at all. A part of me was surprised at myself too, but I got up and didn't look back leaving the cafeteria.