𝕆𝕦𝕥𝕤𝕚𝕕𝕖𝕣 (Stanley Uris x reader)

• Shut it! •

Stanleys POV•

We were all standing outside after the incident at Neibolt. As we were leaving, no one spoke a word. Everyone just trudged out of Neibolt, heads down. We all still were in shock.

No one could believe that Y/N had sacrificed herself for us, for all the children of Derry. It was a heroic move but I just couldn't help seeing it as foolish.

"Bill, this is all your fault!" Richie said suddenly making everyone's heads turn. Bill looked up, through hurt eyes.

"M-my fault?" Bill shook his head, I could hear the pain in his voice, but I said nothing.

"Yeah! If you hadn't brought us to Neibolt, none of this would've happened! Y/N would still be with us! Alive!" Richie continued.

Tears started forming in my eyes and I quickly wiped them away so no one saw.

"R-ruh-Richie! It w-was your choice to come w-with me! B-buh-Beverly was taken and it was obvious that Y/N w-w-wanted to save her! I didn't know she w-was going to sacrifice herself!!" Bill raised his voice angrily, his voice cracking every so often.

"Guys.." Beverly said weakly but she was too tired and upset to continue.

"This isn't the time guys" Eddie muttered but the two boys ignored him.

"Don't g-guh-go blaming me for Y/N's death!" Bill cried and Richie groaned in a mixture of frustration and sadness. They argued and argued and it was getting louder and louder. They were doing my head in, all I wanted was some peace and quiet.

"Shut up! Everyone just, please! I can't deal with you all right now! This was no one's fault here. It was that clowns. I had Y/N taken from me! Please have a bit of sympathy and don't fight right now!" I yelled at everybody, tears were now streaming down my face at a steady motion.

Everyone turned to look at me and their faces changed to pity when they seen my broken face.

"We can't be fighting, Y/N, wouldn't have wanted that." I said, and I just broke down completely there and all the Losers came forward to me and we all sobbed together.

Time skip - 3 days later...

I couldn't take it and sat down on Y/N's front step.

Sure I had only known her for a few months, but that felt like a lifetime to me. She was my first crush, my first true love. And now she was gone and that was that.

"Stanley, don't cry!" Bill sighed but I turned to him.

"No Bill! I have to! She was my best friend! My crush! And now she's dead! Dead!" I yell and I run all the way back to my house.

Richies POV•
I stared at Stanley's disappearing figure and sniffled.

"Guys, he's right, she must be gone by now" I mumble and Bill looks at me.

"N-no. She can't be gone, she has superpowers!" Bill sighed.

"I can't believe it" Eleven muttered sadly and she walked off.

4 days later...
Me and the rest of the losers had had no contact with Stanley since 4 days. Today was the day of Y/N's funeral and it was devastating. None of our town really knew her so it was kind of just a small little commemoration of her memory. It was held in the clubhouse.

All the losers met up except Stanley. I was wondering if he would even show up when he appeared. He looked a mess, I wish I was able to cheer him up but nothing would ever cheer him up from this.

We all said goodbyes to Y/N and sat down and just stared into the silence. It was deafening. All of us were in such a stage of grief.

Meanwhile...

Narrators POV•

Panting and out of breath, Y/N awoke down in the sewers, dazed and confused. What the hell had happened to her?

i had to switch up like 20% of this chapter because looking back at it, it made no sense.

•^*%* Question: Do you have a pet?

Answer: Yes! I have a boxer dog named Ruby and she's currently 10 years old! 🫶🏼🫶🏼