The Sun Behind My screen (J.H)

Chapter 1

She's yelling. At you. She's. yelling. At. You. Smash her head against- No! she's your mom you sick fuck. I really need to get off drugs.

"Mom! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to drop the fucking phone into the pot!''
''Watch your damn language Jasmine!''
Wait. Did I really...boil my phone? I start laughing like a maniac until I'm crying.
''I..I...Ihihi-hihaha"
Mom looks at me with a sense of sadness in her eyes.
"Get ready. We're gonna let you do the Bpd tests."
''What? Mom- no I'm sorry-''
''Stop. I know you don't mean it.''
''All this because of a damn phone?!'' I yell.
''Just the phone? You went to..to..the sleepover at Stacy's and were gone for a week! Only sending messages saying it's okay! You know how worried I was!"
It wasn't me sending the messages. It was one of the guys. Mom I messed up. I really messed up this time. I'm hiding sick bruises from all of you and I feel horrible as ever. But I can't tell you that.
"It was a....a week long sleepover!"
"Just stop. I don't want to talk to you. Phil is going to take you so get dressed."
Don't cry. You can do that later. Just smile and get dressed.

3 months later(imagine the voice)

"I have a surprise for you!" I look up to see very excited mom.
It's getting better. Slowly. I was diagnosed with Bpd and now it's easier for my family to understand my behaviour. I have been clean for 65 days. 2 months and 4 days. They have started to trust me again. I even got some pocket money. My mom was broken when she found out about my drug addiction and all..the self-destructive behaviours.
Uh...a good or a bad surprise?" I ask contemplating over all the bad things I've done recently. Don't think I've forgotten that time when I pushed Bella off the couch, and she got a huge bruise and then you said you have a surprise for me and then got me a huge pink stuffed unicorn. I still see it in my nightmares. It had big blue eyes and a smile that could kill.

"A good one!" She says dragging me downstairs. Let's hope so.
"It's a reward for 2 months clean." She says and hands me a box.
I quickly asked Phil if my mental health will stay the same after opening it, he said no. Sike I'm still going to open it.
"A new phone?"
"A new waterproof phone" Phil says. Ouch.
"Thanks guys." That's nice? But a phone for 2 months? Nah. They probably did something that is going to outrage me. I always get suspiciously good presents when that happens.
"Also, honey, about your comfort sweater you lost last week-"

Told ya.

After downloading all the apps and and signing in to my accounts, I go to contacts.
Great. I still have most of my contacts remaining. Only a few are missing. I quickly type in Bella's number to try if it works and start texting.

(Jasmine) hey loser

(Jasmine) It's your favourite mentally ill person in the world

(Jasmine) ******* answer me you ****** *** ** * *****! you ************

(Jasmine) wait why does it block out all the cuss words

(U) Maybe because cussing is inappropriate?

(Jasmine) really?

(Jasmine) omg no way! i would've never guessed that!

(U) I can smell your sarcasm to the other end of the world.

(Jasmine) ha ha
(Jasmine) wait Bella doesn't get sarcasm who tf are you

(Jasmine) oh man

(U) Wrong number?

(Jasmine) no shit sherlock

(J) If you're a girl named Bella with brown hair and an annoying personality say cheesecake

(U) ...

(J) Killer say what

(U) Are you okay?

(J)  i swear it worked once!

(U) Once.

(J) shush. sure you are not a brunette girl named Bella.

(U)  my name isn't Bella and my hair is blonde.

(J) HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHA

(J) who even has blond hair nowadays. disgusting.

(U) I do?

(J) i didn't know naturally blond people still exist

(J) you from middle age or sth lmao

(J) I'm gonna call you blondi from now on

(U) You do realise you're texting a stranger and there won't be a next?

(J) yes blondie.

Jasmine changed "Unknown" into "Blondi"
Jasmine changed "Jasmine" into "Jas"

(B) Jasper.

(J) what?

(B) It's Jasper not blond...bitch.

(J) scrumptious name.

(B) Shut up.

(J) yes sirrrrrr

(J) are you older than 13?

(B) Are you?

(J) Yes? are you avoiding my question?

(B) No! I'm definitely older than 10.

(B) Promise.

(J) nice.

(J) anyways so

(J) how old are you exactly then?

(J) blondi?

(B) 17.

(J) I'm 16.

(B) Lovely.

(J) you sound like an old person.

(B) Well you sound just fantastic.

(J) because I am.

(B) Egoistic shit.

(J) Nerdy blond bitch.

(B) I'm not a nerd.

(J) but you are a bitch.

(J) gtg mom's making dinner and I would like to not get a food poisoning so I'll go and stop her.

(B) Bye.

(J) also she burned my favourite book

(Jasper) What?

(J) see you

(Jasper) ..Your book?