This song is just... a random idea. I recently heard it, and I liked it. Also, this kinda relates to me.
The days are blending together
Pretending like I don't notice.
Drowning in mental fog so thick
My hands might close where my throat is.
Not gonna rap that "I'm cursed".
My words got heavy.
And sure enough, the steady ebb-and-flow subsided
But I wasn't ready.
Last night, I thought up a song
But im too wired to hum it.
Inspired sight, like tunnel-vision on the life I got from it.
Not tired yet, right?
Hah.
"It's fun", I'll tell you that much.
Adventures ought to be remembered as such.
But I'm not well.
Not today, not tomorrow.
These souls inside my pocket are just sanity I borrow.
"Sayonara" to the sorrow of eternity alone?
Yeah, right.
Part of the joke is that it's all that I've known.
It's justified, can't help that I 'romanticize' your concern.
Now I can fantasize forever if you never say the words "goodbye".
This tainted mindset really must go free.
Finding someone so fucking wonderful if I'm just so... "me".
Searching by city light.
You'll never find me.
Running through a cursed night.
Do you have a death wish?
Shut the lid tight.
It's complicated.
Could you not look inside?
It's... complicated.
Somehow, I'm just a page in, but I've cried and I've grown.
To shut away the conversation of my "highs-and-lows".
自分の目で見えたいの?
この絶望の美しさ
Laid back in the cracks of my past, it's kinda funny.
Got sick of the tricking myself into thinking that others would only run from me.
Because, as you know, I'm death-
You heard about me?
I'm kinda famous, now it's awkward...
But welcome to my constant state of mind
Like, could you knock first?
話さない言葉
みんなの心配ごとは
耳につながらない
Why is it every time your kindness is making my chest unbearably tight?
But, not for the first time.
A terrible night for a curse
But don't you worry cause it hurt fine.
Drunk
Lost
CalliP.
Wandering rengoku-shi.
Enlighten me, is this what they call a "sunken cost fallacy"?
Frightening, in spite of things i want tossed my way.
I'm looking everywhere at once, and months are passing like days.
"By myself" is just better. I know I say that a lot.
But if someone holds you back, then you can not become god.
Lost in the night, 情けない, hostile, hostage or free
These childish eyes will only show my mind what I wanna see.
Searching by city light.
You'll never find me.
Running through a cursed night.
Do you have a death wish?
Shut the lid tight.
It's complicated.
Could you not look inside?
It's... complicated.
Somehow, I'm just a page in, but I've cried and I've grown.
To shut away the conversation of my "highs-and-lows".
自分の目で見えたいの?
この絶望の美しさ
Yeah, 自分の目で見えたいの?
この絶望...
自分の目で見えたいの?
Wanna see it?
Fine, this time, look for yourself.
Just a reminder, yes I am ok. This is a lyric chapter, so no need to worry.
