Sitio Series 2: Capturing Scintillating Scenery

Chapter 54

AN: Song credits:  Play the song Dancing With Your Ghost by Sasha Sloan

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CSS 54| A bunch of dandelions, a wedding and a endless goodbyes

My head is pounding. I woke up in my room with my mother sleeping at the edge. Nakita ko rin ang isang palanggana at bimpong nakababad doon.  I slowly stood up and carried my mother on my bed, alam kong hindi ito nakatulog ng maayos dahil sa nangyari kagabi.

Theo accompanied me because I was too drunk to drive, coach on the other hand was with his son. Naghilamos ako at nagtooth brush sa may banyo pagkuwana'y agad na bumaba sa may kusina. Doon ko na datnan si Papa na nagluluto ng agahan habang sina Rossena, Renny at Denny ay naririnig kong naglalaro sa may sala.

What a scene.

Papa felt my stare, “oh, gising ka na pala..” Agad nitong inilapag ang siningag sa may lamesa at iba pa nitong niluto. “Kumain ka na Rossweisse, nag-aalala kami ng mama sa iyo..” Iyon lang ang mga salitang sinambit niya, I let out a heavy breath. Papa gave me a man hug and then tapped my shoulders saying I can do it. “Go and fix everything, it's not too late. Go back to Deiry and beg for her forgiveness..”

I smiled a little. “S-Salamat pa..”

“Learn from the mistakes I've done. I know that you're aware of it because way back you once loathed me too.” Anito at tumalikod na. “Kumain na kaming lahat at ikaw nalang ang hindi, magpakabusog ka. Pupuntahan ko lang ang mama mo..” Aniya at tumalikod na papaalis. I nodded.

Things are tough nowadays, God gave me things that I should learn to. Choose happiness before past takes everything away, don't let that past mistake swallow your hope in the present. And the important thing is appreciate what you have right now, don't let things vanished on your hands. You will know the value of it when it's too late.

Magana akong kumain para masimulan ang araw na ito. I want to be productive, weeks of crying my heart out was enough. Ang iba siguro tatawanan ako, kasi iyakin ako sa mga bagay-bagay. I'm a man and it doesn't mean that I'm not allowed to feel things that woman can. I can cry because every living organism are entitled to. I can cry my heart out when I'm feeling too, I can be funny and cheerful not the things that was dictated on a sheet of paper or etc. Men are different, we are all.

We're on the same boat but it does not mean that we are all capable or privilege, we have different ways to cope up, to get through on the heart aches.

Inabala ko ang sarili sa pag-aayos. Tulad ng mga babae ay nagpagupit ako, a clean cut. I also bought new pair of polo and pants. I wanted to visit Deiry and make things work again. Pagkatapos niyon ay dumiretso ako sa may bilihan ng bulaklak. I bought a bouquet of Dandelions again with a mix of other flowers some are looking me with a confused look probably guessing the strange flower I chose.

Igniting the cars engine I thought about Deiry, I wasn't paying attention on my own expression. Where is she now? I asked in week of caging myself I didn't lost any news about her. Until I decided to move again to win her back.

Pinuntahan ko siya sa pinagtratrabahuan niyo pero maaga daw itong nag-out sunod ko siyang pinuntahan sa apartment pero wala rin daw. Nagdrive daw ng kotse paalis.
My heart is tightening on my own guess, she should not. Hanggang sa dinala ako ng sarili sa building ni Dorothy. Kung saan ang condo nito, nadatnan ko naman doon si Gremory na matiyagang naghihintay sa labas hawak ang isang lunch box.

“Gremory..” I called him there's a hint of tiredness on his eyes. “A-Ayos ka lang ba?” I asked, he laughed ridiculously.

Walking towards me, “hmm. I suddenly remembered when I declined and hurted Dorothy's feelings when she gave me a food in the past. Masakit pala, I hate tasting my own medicine..” He murmured, feeling the guilt, regret. “Anyway, why are you here?”