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Part 2: You CaN't alWays Get WaTChYA WAnT

life is hard for me... isn't it for everyone right now?

I try to look on the positive side of things, a glass half full aesthetic ya know? 

I'm 16 and i'm still afraid of living but i have two years left until i graduate high school, and i swear i thought high school was gonna be like an 1980's movie, like pretty in pink or Ferris Bueller's day off or something like that. i'm weird. I don't fit in with my generation at all, its a scientific FACT. I listen to  old school cassettes and 8 tracks and i still watch VHS's  of like Nirvana's MTV unplugged and 10 things i hate about you with Julia Stiles and Heath Legder, or Unsolved Mysteries with Robert Stack. 

i dress normal, like 90's kid normal. I wear jeans, preferably baggie jeans with loose band tee shirts and converse and a black cardigan with two green stripes on the shoulder. i wear a lot of rings, cause i hate my hands there so oddly big. and i am an open book, i spill anything. im tragically a hopless romantic its a bad fatal flaw. 

Ya like jazz? I do. im very into different kinds of music, i like a little bit of everything, besides techno and EDM (I cant dance worth anything) im also a big fan of Amy Winehouse and Billie eilish and NIRVANA I LLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEE Kurt, Krist and Dave, they're fricking amazingly relateable 

UPDATE SOON: I HAVE SCHOOL