Harry's celebrity crush that he has spoken about a few times on the sidemen channel moves into the same apartment block he lives in
From her not knowing him at all to then suddenly her becoming part of the friendship group will she find out she has...
[ H A R R Y ] "Josh am I able to go away for a week?" I ask over the phone
"Why? We have a sidemen Sunday to shoot on Monday, Tuesday we have a moresidemen shoot, Wednesday we have sidemen reacts then on Thursday we have a promotional video to film and Friday is another more sidemen" he explains making me sigh
"Do I have to be there for them all or can I skip them?" I ask praying he says I don't have to be
"Harry what's going on lad" he laughs through the phone
"I need to go to America" I blurt out
"Ohhh this is a Nylah thing" he says
"What no I just want to see the scenery" I say trying to shrug him off
"The scenery?" He bursts into laughter
"Alright yeah I want to go see Nylah alright" I say giving in
"So is something on the cards for you two again?" He asks and I just know he is smirking
"No... yes... maybe... I don't know" I laugh nervously
"You're whipped" he chuckles
"I am not" I retaliate and he clearly doesn't believe me
"Seriously though I'm sorry lad, if you gave more notice I could've rearranged and wrangled you out of some shoots somehow but it's not possible" he says sounding full of regret
"No it's alright I understand, I'll wait until the Callander is less... hectic" I chuckle as I look to my feet kicking gravel on the ground
"Why so urgent anyways? I thought she was in London right now" he asks confused
"Nah she's flown back, whole bust up with Mason and shit so she's gone back home" I explain, feeling a sting when I say home
"Ah so you're swooping in to save the day I see I see" he jokes making me chuckle
"You know that's not me mate" I laugh and he agrees
"I know I know" he says before the call falls silent for a few seconds
"Harry" he speaks up
"Yes?" I ask
"You can always go next week, I mean I know it's a long ish wait, a week, but trust me with everything we are filming it will fly by and you'll be in New York before you know it" he explains happily
"Wait are you serious?" I ask feeling an overwhelming feeling of happiness
"Yes" he chuckles
"Thank you Josh! I love you" I joke and he awkwardly makes an "uhm" sound
"Go onnnn say it back" I chuckle
"Love you too mate" he laughs and I cheer before we say our goodbyes and I hang up
As soon as it says call ended on my screen I don't even think before I jump up, my fist hitting the air as I celebrate me going to New York
It takes me a few seconds to realise my outburst before I glance around the car park and notice a shit ton of people staring at me
god did they just see me jump up and down like a lunatic?
kill me now
I awkwardly look around before I jump back in my car and cringe with embarrassment
[ N Y L A H ] ahhh New York
I absolutely love it here
It's like nowhere else on earth
Okay, maybe that sounds dramatic
But seriously it's unreal
The smells of the streets with the donut vans, the yellow cabs, the tall skyscrapers that twinkle across the skyline at night
The atmosphere is incredible
I'm so happy I moved here full time
As I unlock the door to my sky high apartment I remember to let Harry know I've landed
I crash down onto my sofa before I pull my phone out of my pocket and begin to text him
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I roll my eyes and chuckle at his messages before I look around at my apartment
I kind of feel bad for leaving him and coming back here but New York is my home
It's where I belong
I know I'm meant to be here
Honestly I don't know if we will try again and if we did, how it would work with the distance and especially the 5 hour time difference too
I know that sounds harsh especially because I told him I love him and kissed him before I left
But
I don't know
It's like that's my mindset in London but as soon as I come back to New York it's different
I find it difficult to explain but I get what I mean
There is physical space between us, between London and New York
But I feel emotional and personal distance when I'm here too
I don't associate anything with him obviously, which was absolutely brilliant for me when I first came out
But my feelings for him are much more intense when I'm in London than when I'm here
Whether that's because I'm closer to him there or not I don't quite know
Although you could argue I made it work with Mason for a solid year and a bit
I don't know
Maybe I'm just waffling
I think I need some sleep
I make my way over to my room and turn the light on before I choose some pyjamas to change into for the night
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Hey ALL!!!
I hope you're all doing okay <3
Sorry I've been inactive with uploading the next parts of this story haha
I didn't forget about it, I mean I did but I didn't
