Quarantine Kink

Inevitable

The inevitable happened

I didn't believe it would happen again

I was warned. People don't change

But I wanted the fire

But for one night it was right

One night 

An inevitable goodbye 

I should have known. Hearts don't change

With each moan, push, grunt, and choked breath

It was already over

Because it never was

Illusions

I was blind

By lust, by flesh, by what I thought I deserved

A hollow performance

Filled with hidden bitter emotional vacancy

I wanted to believe, so badly believe it would not end up the same

He was right, he could only give pleasure

I was warned

Both foolish to believe I would not love

And want to love

And be loved

All of the movements were right. The deep mouth kisses. The head between my legs. 

It was what I deserved

Locked eyes in a brief moment of vulnerabilty

We stared 

And it was so real. So raw. 

And I looked deeper

And he met me there

For one exquisite moment

Revealing 

It was goodbye