alongside with you|| iwaoi + sakuatsu

Chapter 19.1

a/n: i might publish my ship smutshots cause why not?? we hit some fuckin charts lovely's 😩☝️ this is mostly focused on atsumu, osamu and sakusa then it'll be oikawa, his sister and iwaizumi. after were gonna focus a little on the other ships then back to iwaoi and sakuatsu. 

*sorry for any spelling mistakes* enjoy loves <3

Atsumu's Pov:

"What the hell do you want from me." He yanked his arm out of Osamu's grip stumbling back a bit hitting his back against the wall.

"I-I just want to talk to you." Sumu answered. His tone almost sounded pathetic. He stepped back a bit, looking straight in Atsumu's eyes. 

Atsumu shut his eyes and shook his head. He wanted to leave so so bad. To completely avoid this conversation and forget about this whole situation but of course life liked picking favorites. 

Osamu reached his hand out stopping mid way, "Please Sumu. I'm really s-" he stopped when Atsumu opened his eyes. "Your what? Sorry? Well I don't want your're sorry's or anything to do with you." He lifted himself up from the wall and started walking towards the door until he was pushed back to the wall with hard force. His eyes widened and watered from the pain he felt on his back.

"Just wait damnit!" Osamu spated out. "Sumu I am really sorry for everything. Just thinking about the situation makes me feel really guilty. I know I didn't look out for you or stand up for you in front of our parents. I don't know why I didn't and I don't know why I just watched everything happen." Few tears spilled out his eyes. "I just don't know."

Atsumu stared at him. Words lost in his throat as he focused on his brothers face. "You just don't know huh?" Were the words that came out. "You don't know why you just watched your OWN twin get abused by OUR OWN parents? You don't know why you didn't try to check up on me to see if I was okay?" 

Osamu just stayed quiet and lowered his head. He truly didn't know why he didn't help out his brother back then. Was it because of fear, jealously, hatred towards him even if he hadn't done anything? "I-I know I should have reached out to you but back then i was... stupid and dumb."

"So your're blaming it on your stupidity?" Atsumu scoffed. 

"N-no i'm not i just.." he stopped speaking, not knowing what to say.

"If we switched places you know damn well I would've gone out of my way to do anything for you. Despite the fact i'm like 5 minuets older then you..." he chuckled lightly before returning back to his stoic expression. "I would've done anything I could to make sure they wouldn't hurt you because I loved you (*sibling love*, don't get it wrong. im still traumatized from that one fan art of them making out😭) with everything I had. Even when you distanced yourself from me, I never stopped because your're my twin and I feel like we should've had a special connection."

Osamu slowly nodded his head. "Yeah and we did have that connection-" he was cut off by Atsumu speaking over him. "No we didn't and you know it. You never spared any glances at me or even talked to me and there was me wondering if I e-ever did anything you upset you." his voice came out cracked.

"No" he shook his head, "You never did anything wrong. I was just being dumb and s-scared." he frowned and used the back of his hand to wipe his tears.

"Scared of what? Me? Scared of being around me because I came out? Please enlighten me and tell me." Atsumu exhaled shakily, not realizing he was holding in his breath. 

Osamu's head perked up turning his gaze to him. "W-What? N-no. That's not it."

"Then tell me what it is. Tell me why you did it. Why you shut me out and ignored me. Why you never looked out for me. Why you neglected me. Why you watched it all happen. Tell me why I had to go to my best friend for help instead of you. My own twin." At this point, he started yelling at Osamu whilst crying. 

All he could do was watch his brother cry. No words came out of his mouth as he opened it trying to say something. There was this feeling of hatred towards his own self. He knew why he did what he did but he couldn't speak. He just watched him. Just like how he did before. Watching. Staring. Looking. 

"Right! You don't have even have answer." Atsumu stood up and as he did the door opened reveling Oikawa, Akaashi, Tendou, Kenma, and Suga. He started walking to the door when Osamu grabbed his arm again but not as hard as before. "Wait Sumu please."

"No, were not doing this any more Osamu. I'm not doing this anymore. I don't want to be here speaking to you nor looking at you. Please let go." Atsumu turned around and looked straight into his eyes. Tears no longer coming down his tear-stained face.

"Just let me finish. Were family, c'mon-"

"We are not family. I don't consider you as my family. Families don't turn their back on each other or treat them the way you did to me. Plus.." Atsumu smiled softly. "I already have my family right here." He pointed at the group standing at the door with his free hand before removing Osamu's grip on the other, walking out the room. 

sorry this is short. i was busy all day but im working on the continuation rn which will be full of sakuatsu 🤌:)

btw, THANK YOU FOR 5k READS WTF ❤️

i was listening to the ending song of your lie in april while writing this. its so good 😩

Sato♡