𝗦𝗬𝗠𝗣𝗔𝗧𝗛𝗬 |

chapter 1.

     I'm more than i saw myself as. Ive always dreamed to be a model some day i love my beauty and every thing about myself i love me. My life has changed for the worst when i met the boy everyone dreamed of making out with in high school, there he was .. Monte Evans, i bumped right into him looking down at my device as i started looking up to see his presents every thing freeze.

i felt a connection right away hes so fucking handsome & tall he has brown skin & silky waves. But when i snapped back into reality i realized we were staring directly in each others eyes almost staring into each other's soul. I slowly turned my head. He laughed just walked away ig he figured i was shy and was new to the school by the way he licked his lips looking down at me the things i felt for him already gave me a guilty feeling but my mind was fill of thoughts, why wasn't he mad ?! did he feel the same connection i did ?! ig we'll never know.

        Soon We started making eye contact more during our classes soon enough we started having little conversations then we become the best of friends hung out almost even day he was the only one who understood my struggles & lifestyle i felt so happy with him i felt every day i could make him love me forever. Next thing you know we graduated, we were a couple & we had a family house together life seemed so perfect. I finally made two new friends Kiana and Renae.

                   2 years later

Were both 23 now things between Monte & I was going good although i felt as though we was falling out we argue almost daily.

     Sometimes it got so bad he would say shit like he hated me or he would out a bullet through me sometimes he even pushed me on the floor or jacked me up by my face or shirt i never took it to heart i put it pass me but Kiana and Renae tells me i should leave him and go find someone else but i love him more than i love myself and plus he's never really put his hands on me.

MONTHS LATER |

    We agreed to go see his family as a vacation for 2 days but while we were there i kinda told his family about our relationship problems just for help but Monte didnt see it that way. The way he walked up ta me i felt something was wrong i felt he was angry at me i knew i couldn't sit there so i stood up before he could grab me & drag me by my arm to the room we were staying in for the time he pushed me to the floor, closed the door. I kept my cries in while i felt in danger as he shouted at me.

"FUCK YOU TELLING PEOPLE OUR BUSINESS FO ?!"

      I tried to say some but i mumbled, the fear i felt wouldnt let me. You could see the rage & angry in his face there was silence for a couple mins but soon enough he grabbed me by my arm yanking me off the floor and pinning me on the wall. He gripped me by my throat til i was nearly unconscious as he shouted.
    "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME QUINCY I GIVE YOU EVERYTHING YOU      COULD POSSIBLY NEED, YOU TRYNA MAKE A FOOL OF ME INFRONT MY FAMILY ?!"

    I let out sounds and gripped on his wrist to bring him back to reality & for him to realize how he was hurting me "Mon-Monte baby pl-pls i cant bre-breathe pls your hurting me" his hands slowly lost grip on my neck & he walked out the room & slamed the door behind him. Id never think he would do something like that to me ever , i slid down the wall fast & balled up letting my emotions out i cried & cried for so long til eventually i cried myself to sleep.

      I woke up very early at like 7am i was wide awake i dont know why but sometimes i cant sleep without being under Monte but he hasnt come bk since. I looked around, climbed out of bed & grabbed my vibrator i walked in the bathroom, sat on the floor & slid my panties off while putting the vibrator on my clit starting it off on the lowest volume.

I closed my eyes as if the vibrator was Monte. I bit my lip and turned the vibrator up more starting to let out quiet moans. I turned my head and bit my lip harder not wanting Monte's Family to hear my moans. I turned the vibrator on the highest volume and started to squirt I felt my legs shake as i called out for Monte as i had my eyes closed still believing the fantasy.

MEANWHILE |

Monte is at some childhood's friends house sleep on their couch.

BACK TO QUINCY |

      After mins i finished and laid down to rest still thinking about monte and if he was safe where ever he was. I was kept wondering if Monte was thinking about me as much as i wondered for him.

    You see he didnt hurt me really he just    
   toughen me up he would never do any     
                            worse...