secrets or lies: a johannie story

sixteen.

johnnys pov:
i walked through the school doors and i immediately scanned the halls for annie.
i saw her at her locker and she saw me.
i began to approach her and she closed her locker and walked the other way.
j: dammit
i said to myself.
ash: what's wrong johnny boy?
asher says approaching me.
j: uhm-
i didn't know what to say because i didn't want to out myself if there's a possibility annie didn't tell him.
ash: trouble in paradise?
he says raising my eyebrows at him.
j: annie didn't tell you?
ash: no, she hasn't said anything, but good luck man.
he says patting my back then walking away.

annie's pov:
i was in math and johnny sits next to me.
i don't want to speak to him, but i also don't want to draw attention to either one of us.
i saw him as he walked into the classroom.
a: you're my partner today.
i said to jayde.
jay: you're always partners with johnny.
a: just be my partner.
jay: is something going on?
a: i'll talk to you-
j: annie.
he says approaching me.
a: sorry i can't talk right now
i say with my back facing him.
j: annie can we just go out in the hall for a minute.
our teacher walked in.
a: class is starting you should probably go sit down.

i say still not facing him.
"switch seats with me" i mouth to jayde.
she nodded her head and i walked to her seat and she sat in mine.
j: jules really?
jayde shushed him as she sat in the seat next to him.
jay: you owe me an explanation later.
a: you'll get one, just keep him away from me please.
jay: i have your back.

johnnys pov:
i wrote jules a note and had someone pass it to her.
it said "i don't want to lose you please talk to me, i'm so sorry. i didn't intend for it to go this far or for us to get this close, but i've had the best couple of months with you and i'll do anything not to lose you".
she read the note and she looked even more flustered then she already was.

once the bell rang annie sprinted out of class.
j: jules, i wanted to talk to you!
i yell as she left the door.
i went to walk out and all of jaydens books fell in front of me.
jay: oh i'm so sorry, i'm such a clutz mind helping me.
she says to me.
j: i need to talk to annie-
jay: i'm sure she can wait.
she says as i bend down to help her.
once she grabs all her book i try to leave, but she blocks me in.

jay: so how's your day, what's been happening?
j: good, i've got to-
jay: glad to hear that, mine as well thanks for asking. thinking about going to the beach, what's your favorite beach.
j: malibu, jayde i really-
jay: i love malibu even though i'm more of a santa monica girl.
she continues to cut me off.
c: jayde let him go.
connor says.
jay: can't.
she whispers to connor.
j: did jules tell you to stall me?

jay: no of course not why would she do that?
she says blocking me in again.
j: jayden!!
i shout
jay: nothing personal johnny, but she's my best friend and i'll do anything for her.
i left the classroom and look the hallways for annie.

i went through so many before i finally found her.
j: annie!
she looked up shocked and tried to speed walk away.
i chased her down the hall.
before grabbing her wrist and she pulls out of my grip.
a: what?

j: you're going to have to talk to me eventually.
a: i talked to you last night.
j: that doesn't count.
a: yes it does.
j: you only answered because you knew something was wrong, you know i wouldn't just randomly call at two am.
she doesn't respond.
j: please talk to me!
a: why should i?
j: because you love me!
she looked at me shocked.
j: and the love you have for me is the same love i have for you.

a: what are-
j: i heard you on the phone last night.
a: with katie?
j: yeah.
a: i never said i loved you.
j: but i know you do. annie i'm sorry okay! i can't be more sorry.
a: i never open up to anyone and with you it was different, and it completely backfired in my face. the worst part about it is i knew something was going between you and hayden and like an idiot i ignored it. how could i be so stupid and how could you even think about treating another person like that?
j: when you met me, i was an immature asshole, i changed and grew up because of you.

a: how am i supposed to believe that when you had so many opportunities to tell me the truth?
j: i was scared.
a: of what?
j: losing you!
a: you think me catching you in a lie was any better.
j: i cant make you believe me, but i wouldn't be standing here fighting for you if i was still lying to you.
she didn't respond.

j: you answered the phone last night.
a: yeah.
she says curious.
j: why'd you answer it.
a: because i care about you johnny, and i've cared about you this entire time! even though you screwed me over i wanted to make sure you were okay.
she says yelling a bit.
j: i care about you so much, that i think about you all day everyday. all i can think about is how much i hurt you and how you're sad and it makes me want to punch a wall.
a: well i'm sorry about that.

the bell rang after she said that.
a: i'll see you saturday.
she says disregarding me.
j: what's saturday?
a: we're leaving for big bear.
j: you still want me to come?
a: i'm not gonna uninvite you and your sister that's rude.
j: are you gonna talk to me there?
a: i'll obviously be civil, it's my family and friends.
j: are you gonna give me another shot i love you.
a: i loved you too.
j: jules.
i say as she walked away.
i don't know what to do.
i want this to work so bad.