(Kenji x female reader) camp Cretaceous- your here

part 9-i hate myself

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*two hours after incident*
Y/n POV:
Your eyes flutter open. You look around and realize your in your room. You see a ton of bloody towels on the floor in the bathroom. And Kenji sleeping next to you. As you remember what happened you bolt upright and start sobbing.
"Shh shh shh it's ok baby don't cry"
Says Kenji as he sits up next to you
"I'm so sorry sweetheart I should have never said that to you" he said while pulling you to his chest
"Ugh I made everyone stressed and worried I hate myself" you say while putting your hands in your head.
"No baby don't say that. C'mon lay down get some sleep" you look at your arms and see bandages across both your arms and you in fresh new clothes
"W-who did this?" You said
"We all helped" said Kenji
"WHAT EVERYONE SAW" you said continuing to sob. "Ben found you baby, I'm sorry I said those things I was just overwhelmed with what you were doing because you shouldn't do that" he said stroking my arms.
You lay down as tears pour from your eyes. "I'm sorry" you say under your breath.

*The next day*
You wake up to Kenji gone and a note where he used to be.

The note:
Dear y/n,
We had to go back to my dad's penthouse to get some supplies. Ben is staying in the living room so that you don't try to kill yourself again. Be back soon. I love you.
Yours,
Kenji

You sigh and stand up and go to your dresser. You lift the clothes but
The pocket knife is gone.
You check your bathroom bag for the blades
Gone.
You check under the bed for the razors
Gone.

You run back to the note and flip it over

Backside of note:
P.s I removed anything you could hurt yourself with. <3

"UGHHH"  you scream flopping down on the bed. Ben comes in not to long after

"How ya doing?" He says leaning on the doorframe
"What does it look like" you say sarcastically
"Hey hey hey...keep a positive attitude. You need to be strong mentally too" he says coming in and sitting on the bed. You see somthing shiney in his pocket.
Your pocket knife.
"Give me that" you say reaching for it
"No I was sworn to keep it away from you"
"BEN GIVE ME THE FUCKING KNIFE" you say grabbing for it.
"No y/n please stop we want you here and safe with us" he says
"URGHHH" you say flopping onto your bed, burying your face in your pillow.
He lightly rubs your back
"Are you hungry?" He says
"No" you say, your voice muffled by the pillow.
"Well im gonna make you some food anyway, you weigh like a pound you need food"
You sigh and give in. You walk out to the kitchen with Ben and sit down at the table.
He puts a plate of fruit in front of you.
You reluctantly eat it until it's gone. You think about getting up to throw up but then you think about what they said
"Your waisting food."
So you sat down on the couch.
Ben came back into the room holding bandages.
"Give me your arms please."
He says as he sits down across from you.
You put your arms forward and he lifts your sleeves. You see blood seeping through the bandages. You look away as he unwraps your old ones and puts on new ones for you.
When he's done you lay down and look at the celling.
"We're back" you hear Kenjis voice.
You bolt upright and run to him
"Woah hi sweetheart" he says hugging you
"She ate all her food without complaining" Ben said proudly
"Good job baby" he says rubbing your back
"We're glad your ok y/n" says Darius with a smile "we don't know what we would do without you" says yaz
You smile and turn around.
Kenji takes this opportunity to slap you on the ass
"HEY!" you shout jumping up and turning around
"Heheeheeh" he laughs as he sits down on the couch.
You sit next to him and he rubs your shoulders.

*Time skip 3 hours*
Your in the kitchen getting water when someone hugs you from behind
"Hi" he says in a lovey dovey tone
"Hey daddy~" you say teasingly
"Oh is that my name now" he says slamming you against the wall
"Yep" you say looking him dead in the eyes
He leans in and kisses you
*5 mins later*
Your back on the counter top still kissing Kenji when Darius walks in
"Get a room" he says
"No"  you say to him
Just to gross him out you and Kenji continue to kiss and make moaning noises
"Guys stop" says Darius
"HAHAAH" you say
"Are you grossed out because you've never kissed a girl before?" You say
"Y-yah" he says scratching the back of his neck
"Heheehe" you snicker

You guys go back in the living room
"It's storming outside" says Sammy looking out the window
"Wow that's a big storm" says Ben
"You know what else is big.." you say eyeing Kenji.
"Woah there that went dirty real quick" said yaz
"I was talking about Kenjis  dads penthouse what were you thinking" you say smirking at her
"I thought you were talking about his dick" she says
"Oh that's big too " you say smirking at him 
He turns beet red. "Babe stop your gonna give me a boner" he says in your ear
"I just have that effect on you don't I" you say as you run your hands up his chest
"Sure thing" he says as his hands fall to your waist.
"Guys stop" says Ben
"Ok Ok" you say turning back around.
*1 hour later*
your walking around and you find a cupboard. You open it and see tones of bottles of pills. You take a bottle of pain killers and hide it under your bed just in case.