Here For You

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TW's:
-Self harm
-Self hate
-Bullying

George's POV

TW self harm+blood

I was crying as I stood in the shower. I woke up multiple times at night, crying about my parents. In the shower I didn't even care anymore, I grabbed my blade to cut my arm open again. After the bleeding got a bit less, I stepped out, dried off and pulled on the thickest hoodie I had.

TW over

I suddenly heard Clay scream and I ran to the room. He was staring at one point on his bed with big eyes and I tapped his arm. He was startled and hit my hand away in shock.

'Are you okay?'

'Shut up, I don't want to talk to you.'

'I'm sorry,' I mumbled and sat down on my bed to chill for a bit. It was early in the morning, so we didn't have to go to class yet.

I grabbed my phone to text Dream quickly and I smiled as I saw he was already typing.

Dream
Hi, good morning <3 how are you?

Gogy
Rough morning, but I'm okay now. You?

Dream
Same here, have you done anything bad to yourself?

Gogy
Yeah, sorry

Dream
I'm so sorry, how can I help?

Gogy
I feel like I'm not able to be helped, I keep cutting myself, but don't worry. I'm trying. How are you?

Dream
WE are trying, I'm helping too <3 and I'm okay now

Gogy
I love you <3 you can talk to me, you know that right?

Dream
I've thought about how I'm going to tell you and I want to tell you in small steps. I won't be able to tell you everything at once

Gogy
I totally get that <3 take the time you need, I'm here for you

Dream
Okay, thanks. I might tell you this evening, but I'm not sure when I have to leave for breakfast. I don't want to start it and then leave

Gogy
That's fine <3

Dream
Can you try to not cut anymore today? You're such an amazing person and I promise you that you don't deserve that pain. If something is hurting you this badly inside, talk to me

Gogy
I might tell you later too, but I'm not ready. I haven't told anyone this

Dream
I understand <3 I love you so much

Gogy
I love you too, you're the best friend I could wish for

Dream
You already are :)

I smiled a little and felt my cheeks heat up a bit. Dream always made me happier, no matter what he did. I knew he had done something really bad, but I forgave him anyway. I knew something was wrong in his life and it maybe didn't make up for what he did, but he still had a reason.

Gogy
I'm going to go in a bit, remember how much I love you, okay?

Dream
Remember how much I love you then :)

Gogy
I will <3 bye

Dream
Bye <3

I put my phone away and stood up, walking to my bag in the corner of the room. I saw Clay looking at me and his face was a bit red. I didn't know why, so I ignored it and grabbed my hairbrush.

I felt Clay stare at me and turned around to look back at him.

TW bullying

'Don't look at me, idiot.'

'You were staring.'

'Shut up, I will hurt you.'

'You've done that enough already.'

'Good.'

I nodded slowly and laid my hairbrush down. I wasn't done yet, but I just wanted to be gone. I quickly put on some shoes and walked to the door.

'Where are you going?'

'Away from you,' I muttered as I closed the door behind me.

TW over

Clay was genuinely breaking me at this point, I was so hurt by all the comments he had made. Every time I looked in the mirror, I felt nothing but self disgust and self hate. I was never that secure, but I was just so insecure now that I genuinely hated myself.

I avoided mirrors as much as possible, because I got nauseous of my own reflection. I genuinely hated myself and so did everyone else.

I slowly walked to the place we had been told to go for breakfast and sat down on one of the benches as a teacher walked closer to me.

'How are you, George?'

I shrugged. 'I'm fine.'

'Has Clay been mean to you?'

'Let's just say that he hasn't been nice, but it's fine. I can handle this myself.'

'You look really tired.'

'Homesickness,' I muttered.

I looked at Sapnap who came close and he sat down next to me. 'Are you homesick?'

I nodded slowly and the teacher walked off now Sapnap was with me. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and smiled. 'Do you have a picture of them?'

I nodded and grabbed my phone to show him my Lock Screen. 'They look like they are amazing.'

'They are, I really miss them.'

'You can call them to tell them what we are going to do today. We are going to visit a museum.'

'I like museums,' I smiled shyly.

'Really? That's cool! It's about the Second World War.'

I smiled and looked at my hands. 'I'm probably stupid for liking museums, I'm sorry.'

'No, you're not stupid at all. I'm really interested in the Second World War too, so I'm excited to go.'

'I just like learning new facts and seeing new things.'

'You're really smart,' Sapnap smiled. 'Way smarter than I'll ever be.'

I smiled, but shrugged after. 'I'm dumb, don't act like I'm not.'

'You're not dumb at all, you're the smartest of our class.'

'Thank you.'

'It's a fact,' Sapnap smiled. 'Call your parents before breakfast starts.'

I nodded and stood up to call my parents. I felt a bit better after I talked to them and I went back to the table where more people were sitting now. Clay was sitting next to Sapnap and I shyly sat down on Sapnap's other side. He smiled at me, but Clay looked at me grossly.

'Can you just leave? I'm already with you way too much.'

I wanted to stand up, but Sapnap grabbed my hand. 'Sit down. If you don't want him here, Clay, then you can leave.'

Clay rolled his eyes and sighed dramatically as he kept sitting down. It hurt me, it genuinely hurt me so much that he was this mean to me.

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