how we met- LOUIS PARTRIDGE

dont tell- 23

TW: topics that can be sensitive to people are being discussed

Y/N POV

It's been a week since the day that Louis screamed at me I don't understand what I did he hasn't talked to me since that day he blocked my number whenever I go to his house he never seems to be there

 ive had enough of this it's my last straw he always happens to go to this Cafe every single day to get tea in the morning so I'll just wait there to see if he shows up

as I waited eagerly in the cafe for him to walk in I saw the door open right away my eyes went straight to the door and there he was standing there he didn't realize I was there yet so I sped it up to him before he could run away

" what the hell why are you ignoring me what did I ever do to you"

" what are you doing , like stalking me now"

" no I just want to you to explanation why you lashed out at me  that day and why you're ignoring me"

" it's hard I can't just explain it"

" yes you can"

LOUIS POV
 I really didn't want to tell her and I didn't want to lash out at her but but if I  didn't then she would question me and in the end of the day I would have to tell her anyways why It was actually there and I wasn't going to tell anyone about it but I can't just scream at her and ignore her without an explanation so it looks like I'll have to tell her

" okay I'll tell you at my house after I get my tea"

" okay hurry up"

I quickly went up and order my tea and left the cafe

" okay are you going to tell me now"

" no no no we need to be in private at my house in my room"

" okay whatever you say"

As Y\N walk quickly and I trailed behind her we ended up right at the front door of my house

I got  my keys and start to fiddle with the door trying to open it purposely so we wouldn't have to discuss it

" here let me try" she says if she grabs the keys out my hand

" see was it really that hard"

as I walked up the stairs to my room she trailed behind I was so nervous I didn't know what she would think what if she would leave me and stop being my friend what if she would tell someone what would I do then 

" okay it might take me awhile to spit it out kind of hard to talk about but I'll try just promise you won't leave me"

" yeah of course I promise why"

" well a few years ago in school I used to get bullied a lot it was very hard for me and people would just tell me that I was worthless and I shouldn't be alive I don't know how to deal with it so instead......"

" so instead?..."

" to get rid of the internal pain I would... Use the lighter to burn myself"

" oh my God Lou do u still do it"

" no I stopped last year"

" then why was it out"

" it was out because I was cleaning my room and I found it and I wanted to get rid of it because I didn't want to be reminded of the constant pain that I went through but then I realized I had to pick you up so I just left it there"

" I'm so sorry" she said she hugged me and comforted me

" no I am I shouldn't have got mad at you I should have just told you the truth and why it was actually there I didn't think you would be this understanding"

" of course Lou you can tell me anything"

" just please don't tell anyone please"

" your secret's safe with me"

she stayed they're hugging me tightly I was scared she wouldn't be this understanding but I was wrong I really do love this girl so much she just doesn't know it yet she also doesn't know what I'm planning






AUTHOR NOTE: hey guys sorry been really an active I actually had exams and I was really busy with work but I should be more active this weekend and week because my exams are done and I'll be at my mom's house I'm also really sorry about this chapter if it triggered anyone ♡