Angel of Doom and an English Rose (Phantom of the Opera)

Chapter 30 - Forgiven and Loved

Rosetta's POV:

I couldn't restrain myself. I just wanted to kiss him. I just couldn't stop myself. His lips were so wonderful against mine.

I was about to dive in for another kiss when he held my head in his hands and said,
“What are you doing here?” I leaned forward and almost kissed him again when he drew back. I looked down, ashamed that I had been so bold. I shouldn't have done it.

I bit my lip and whispered,

“I have been trying to find you for the past three years. You're a hard man to track down, Erik! I have had the devil of a time trying to find you.” He stared at me and he reached for my hands. I could see the disbelief in his eyes.

“But, I told you to return to England and to find someone else? I don't deserve you, Rosetta. It is best if you do.” I felt tears at the back of my eyes. Did he want me? Did he really love me or was it all a game with him? I squeezed his hand and whispered,

“But, Erik, I don't want to go to England. I will never love another person. I will never love again if I leave. Do you even love me, Erik? I beginning to believe you don't!” His eyes went wide and he pulled me closer to him. His voice broke as he said,

“Rosetta, I will always love you. I never stopped. You don't know how many times I almost went looking for you. I had been dying without you. But, don't you understand? Living with me is hell! A living hell! I live in a cellar for heavens sake. That is no place for a lady. You are much better off without me.” I smiled. He still loved me. That was enough. If he still loved me then he would come to see reason.

I reached up and trailed my hand over his mask. I was beginning to grow curious. I had always wondered what was beneath it. Maybe one day I would know. He flinched when I touched it. I laid my head on his chest and whispered,

“If you love me then why do you keep driving me away? I don't want anyone else. I want you and love you. You say you are dying without me? Then accept my love and let me return. I have lived for three years trying to find you. You run again and I will always look for you.” He shivered and pulled my closer. I could only imagine what was going through his mind.

Erik's POV:

I held her close and tried to keep my heart from pounding. She still loved me. We were still together if I accepted her. I wanted to accept her. I wanted to keep her with me. I wanted … to marry her. I loved her. I knew that if I drove her away again, I would never survive. I would crawl back to my lair and die like the cockroach I was.

I was nothing more than a thing that dared to fall in love with an angel. And this angel dared to love me back. I pulled away slightly and looked into her bright eyes. I stared to softly sing,

Ever since I could remember,
Everything inside of me,
Just wanted to fit in
I was never one for pretenders,
Everything I tried to be,
Just wouldn't settle in

If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
If this problem lies in me

I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.

Can I clear my conscience,
If I'm different from the rest,
Do I have to run and hide?
I never said that I want this,
This burden came to me,
And it's made it's home inside

If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because,
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
If this problem lies in me

I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.

I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.

I finished and whispered,

“You are my candle. I can't live without you. I don't want to.” I laid my forehead against hers and closed my eyes. She took my hands in hers and whispered,

“Then you don't. I will stay. I don't want to leave.” I opened my eyes and kissed her gently. I pulled away and whispered, “Forgive me for leaving you. I shouldn't have. It was stupid of me. I left you alone in the world. You could have been hurt!” I started to panic. She laughed and kissed me. I had been a fool. This beautiful girl had loved me and I had left her. I had been such an idiot. I didn't deserve her forgiveness. Like I didn't deserve anything that she had given me.

She looked up at me and with a perfect smile said,

“I forgive you. I forgave you a long time ago.” I felt tears coming to my eyes and I pulled her close to me. I didn't want to let her go. Why did she have to so perfect? Why did I have to love this girl so much it killed me if she was gone from me. I kissed her gently and then she asked something I had feared ever since I met her,

“What is behind your mask?”

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Author's Note:

Dear Readers,

The song is Monsters by Imagine Dragons. Just imagine that it is sung more connected and slower. Not quite like they did. More Erik-like if you catch my drift? Did I just confuse everyone? Oh well, sorry!!!!!!!!!

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