sometimes I wish I wasn't myself
I imagine I could be happier
I wouldn't feel useless and pathetic
I wonder, if I ever saw myself from an outside perspective
if I would hate myself
if I would despise my appearance
personality
laugh
voice
could I do that to myself
would I do that to myself
would I wish to be someone else again
would it be to escape
escape from the harsh reality
peter pan was ten thousand percent correct when he told us to never grow up
because growing up includes shitty leaders
and taxes
and bills
and taking care of yourself properly, which I do a shitty job of now
is that why I wish to be someone else
because I can't stop growing up before my time
I do believe in fairies
I do
I do
not suicidal
