I wish to be free
of my mind
I'm tired of these thoughts, drifting throughout my brain
negative thoughts
unhelpful thoughts
suppressive thoughts
You would never know it from the outside either, though I suppose no-one ever can truely see what you are thinking inside your skull
but after a while you get good at hiding your emotions
disappointment becomes a blank face
happiness and joy permanately displayed to hide true emotions
like the feeling of utter dispair when you know there is nothing for you to do when your friend is crying her eyes out
or when you want to cry your eyes out when you know that there is nothing you can say or do to make him like you
nothing you can say or do when your friend likes him as well
helplessness
sadness
dispair
negativity
they all merge into one long emotion, that can never be overcome by a differing one
they merge into one long drought, which can never be resolved with one sunshower
trust me, its been a long drought
I wish to be free of my mind
