Accept your past without regret, handle your present with confidence and face your future without fear.
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"Sofhia."
"Cam."
"Hoy Cam! Ang ganda kong pinsan!" Sabi ni Spencer at niyakap ako.I hugged him back.
How I missed my dear cousin.Its been a long time since the last time I saw him.
“I missed you Spence!” sabi ko at narinig ko siyang tumawa.
"Namiss din kita hon!" Sabi niya at nanatili kaming ganoon pero may narinig kaming nag-clear ng lalamunan niya.
We pulled and saw Syl glaring at Spence who was putting his hands in the air.Surrendering.
"Wala akong ginawa!" Aniya at inosenteng tumingin sa amin.
Ngumisi si Syl at hinila ako sa gilid niya and snaked his arms on my waist possessively."Yes you did jerk!"
Ngumiti si Spence."So possessive.Hey hon ingat ka sa kanya." Sabi niya at binigyan ako ng smirk.
"Shut up Idiot!" Sumirit si Syl.
"Ehem. " napalingon kaming lahat kay Sophia. She both look at Syl and Spence, or more like they're talking with each other eyes.
Tumango ang magkabilang tulala at tumingin sa akin si Syl saka ako binigyan ng malaking ngiti.Tinapik ni Spence ang balikat ko at bumulong ng goodluck.
They walk away leaving us both in silence and awkward situation.I sit in one of the beach chairs and Sofhia also do the same thing.
She sat beside me.Napatingin ako sa paligid dahil hindi ko alam kung paano ako kumilos pagkatapos ng lahat ng nangyari between us.That was a big war!
"Uhm mukhang masaya kayong dalawa ngayon." Sabi nya at tumango naman ako.
"Yes."I answered and for a few minutes we stayed silence.Again!
Nagulat ako nang hawakan niya ang mga kamay ko.She looked at me with a shy, pity, sad and guilty emotion.
"Nasaktan ako. One day, Nakita siyang my niyakap na babae at ikaw yun. Nararamdaman kong may kumurot sa puso ko.Nakita kong ngumiti siya at tuwang tuwa ang mga mata niya na makita ka habang ako nilalamig na parang yelo. Nagselos talaga ako. Lumabas ako at umiyak at iniwan kayong dalawa na masaya. Lumipas ang mga araw at nabalitaan kong kasal na siya sayo,nagalit ako sayo. Tanong ko sa sarili ko anong meron sayo na wala ako? Starting then, I made a self-promise to myself that I would have him to myself, but I didn't. I let my rage and jealousy control me at that point. I attempted to woo him but was unsuccessful. After several months, I did have another plan upang ilayo ka sa aking landas. Sagabal ang tingin ko sa'yo kaya't sinubukan ko ang lahat. Noong araw na umalis ka sa buhay niya, umagang iyon nang dumating ako sa opisina niya. Pinilit niya akong lumabas at huwag nang bumalik pero pinilit ko. My plan will begin at that time. I gave him the package containing a photo-shopped image of you and a man doing something inappropriate on your bed."
Nagulat ako sa narinig.
Nung una hindi siya naniwala pero naghanda ako ng isa pa. You were sexing. I'm sorry, it was modified. At that point, he was halfway convinced, but he afterwards said that it had been simply edited. When you walked in and witnessed the situation, I saw hurt and betrayal in your eyes. I hadn't considered how you would feel, and I know I was being cruel and selfish. I apologize. I lured him, made him believe what I was doing, and caught him in my trap. After that nag walk out ka at tinulak ako ni Sylvester at tumakbo palabas. Pagkatapos ng araw na iyon narinig kong pinaalis ka niya at lumipad ka palabas ng bansa. Simula sa araw na iyon ay nakita ko ang walang laman na si Sylvester. Napakalamig niya makitungo at walang pakialam kung sino man ang kasama niya. Lasing siya at nagpakawala. Pumunta siya sa bar at kumuha. lasing palagi.Pumunta ako sa kanya pagkatapos nun at sinubukan ko ulit akitin pero tinulak niya ako palabas ng buhay niya.I was mad that time kaya hindi na ako nagpakita sa sarili ko after that day.Lumipas ang mga araw at naisip ko kung anong nagawa ko. Spence, a crazed intruder who yelled at me and told me I was so horrible, was the one who made me recognize it. I cried and regretted it. I then heard from him that you have a daughter, which made me regret it even more. I know that it's his daughter. He cursed me to hell. He wanted to hurt me but stopped himself and left. And I know na sa hinaharap ay hihilingin niya ang kanyang daddy at ako ay hindi t want her to suffer because of that.I don't want her to be like me.Its lonely and it hurts at the same time.Lagi kang binu-bully ng mga kaklase mo dahil wala kang tatay na to come and pick you up, buy you things and more. That time I decided to go and tell Sylvester the truth. He pushed me to get out but I didn't. Sinabi ko sa kanya ang totoo at syempre nagagalit siya.Sinisigawan niya ako ng masasakit na salita at minumura.Masakit pero alam kong karapat dapat ako.Pagkatapos nun ay hinagis niya ako. out and said he never want to see me again.And I decided to go far away after all what happened.Nothing happened to us after you ran away Cam. promise wala. And I-Im so sorry Camila.I am so sorry.Hindi ko naisip kung paano ka masasaktan ng anak mo. Really, I'm sorry. Even if I apologize, you won't accept my forgiveness. Even so, I apologize. Never will I forgive me. Really, I'm sorry.
My eyes started to cry.
She sobbed. I reassured her by giving her a hug.
