2 sad people with shitty lives decide to follow each other on Instagram, blossoming into an amazing friendship, helping each other through gender identity crisis's, drug addiction, and mental health. But, they live in different states and have a 3 h...
Considering I didn't have a job anymore, I had to think of something. I scrolled through all the job listings on google in my area, but nothing. I didn't want to work in Mcdonalds, that sounds too anxiety inducing. I hear a bing on my computer and see I had a new message on Discord from a guy. "Hey, I was wondering if we could play Overwatch together. I'll even pay you for your time!" I didn't think this was gonna be legit if I'm honest. But what the hell, even if I don't get paid, at least I'll have some fun. I hop on a call with the guy and we start talking and playing. An hour passes and he asks for my Paypal. I give him the email and we hang up. I get a notification "You received $80.00 from Joshua Jenson"
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I honestly couldn't believe this was happening. Maybe this could be a good way of income.
DM's Viper: bro some guy just gave me money for playing video games and talking Canary: WHAT???? Viper: *1 picture* Canary: Holy shit TEACH ME Viper: call me !
So, Canary and I got on call and I explained to him what I did and gave him the server name I was in. I decide to message a few more people, and within a couple hours I had enough for rent. $325. Not bad. I honestly couldn't believe this was real, the fact people would pay others online just to talk and play games for an hour or so. I didn't expect $80, maybe just $10 from each person.
~Time Skip~ I lay in bed listening to Korn and decide I wanted to buy Canary something and mail it to him.
DM's Viper: hey u up? Canary: Yes why Viper: what's your address:) im mailing you something Canary: :00 Omg okay one sec
I decide I wanted to buy him a Hello Kitty plush since we were both hyperfixated on Sanrio. I buy it and send it to his house and tell him it's been bought. I hope he likes it, I have money so might as well spoil my friends. I'm honestly not even going to go into work tomorrow, Sam can just mail me my last paycheque. I'm not dealing with him. I decide to call Canary and fall asleep on the phone again. It's comforting to be honest. It's nice to have someone there while I sleep.
~Time Skip~
I woke up and saw Canary was still asleep on the phone, I smile. I'm not sure if I should hang up and get ready for the day or go back to bed. I decide to just go downstairs and get food and leave my phone there. It's noon here which means it's 9am for Canary, so he's definitely still asleep unless he has work. Pablo's not here but I see coffee's already made. I sit down and then hear a knock and then Moth comes in with a book. "Oh, hey Moth" I say "Hi V, I got you a gift!" She hands me a book titled "Burn After Writing" "Oh? What is it?" I ask "It's a book to help you open up to yourself and rant. But anyways wanna get high?" Moth pulls out a baggie full of joints and we decide to go outside and light them. I don't smoke in my house due to my pets, I don't wanna get them sick. "So, tell me about Canary?" Moth says "Who told you about him?" I ask, confused "Oh, Pablo did ! You seem happy though, I'm glad you have a friend." Moth passes me the joint and I start to tell her about Canary, starting with how we met.
~Time Skip~
I walk back upstairs after Moth leaves, and I completely forgot that I left Canary on the phone. I check the phone and he's still asleep on call, so I grab my phone and decide to hang up so I can call Pablo. "Hey! Can you pick me up some pasta sauce? I wanted to make us pasta for dinner to night" "Yeah, sure. Anything else you need" "No, nothing I can think of currently!" I hang up and sit on my bed. I want to spend my money on something but I'm just not sure what to buy. I know I should probably just save it for when I need it but I just have the constant urge to spend money and buy new things to provide myself with dopamine. It's honestly such a bad habit, but it keeps me off drugs, I guess. The last time I did anything was Xanax. But that ended with it being laced with fentanyl and a hospital trip. I try to stay away from that shit now, but it's honestly hard when half the time it's all you can think of. If I'm honest, drugs are the only thing that provide me with happiness. It's probably because I'm so fucking lonely, but it's also probably because of my BPD and the constant dullness I feel. I always need something to at least fill the hole in my life for a little bit. Nothing lasts though, asides from drugs. Canary's mentioned he has addiction problems as well and to be honest, it makes me feel less alone. I've never felt comfortable enough talking about my addictions with my friends because I always feel so judged. But Canary actually understands me. I try to stay off hard shit now and just stick to weed, but sometimes weed isn't enough but I know I can't go back to doing xanax every day and not coming home for weeks on end. I used to love parties and going out at all the time, but now I hate it because it reminds me of how lonely I truly am and just reminds me of the bad shit in my past. I do wish I could go back to those days sometimes, I know it isn't good for me though. I'm hoping Canary will be a permanent part of my life and can actually help me with this shitty stuff. It's super hard opening up but for some reason, Canary seems almost exactly like me, and I trust him, even though we just met.
