Nervous

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Kim Nabi's pov:
I woke up to the loud sound of my brother screaming downstairs, last night the boys were playing video games and they literally stayed up all night. So I actually did wake up pretty late, it was like 1pm.
"Yah, Kim Sunoo!!! Let me sleep Please!" i yelled as i put the pillow over my head, in attempt to muffle the loud sounds. All of a sudden I heard my door open.
"Hey noona, I'm sorry for being loud, I tried telling Sunoo to be quiet but he's watching his show... and let's just say his favorite characters just broke up" Jungwon said as he peeked his small head through my door. Aww how can I possibly be mad at him?.
"It's okay, it's okay, I'm up anyways" He nodded his head and left my room quietly. Jungwon was just a couple months younger than me yet he still called me noona, it was really sweet, but I didn't know why since I've been knowing him for a long time since he's been Sunoo's friend for years now, I've known all his friends, and got along with all of them, except one... he just wouldn't let me in I guess. He was sort of, complicated. But anyways, back to my day.
I got up to take a quick shower, threw on some joggers and a white shirt then went downstairs with the guys. "Heyyy everyone, do you guys wanna go eat or should Jake and i just order some food?" Jake was my bestie, ever since he became friends with Sunoo and I met him, we just clicked, we had so much in common and just got along great. "I kind of want some tteokbokki, but they don't do delivery so you guys are going to have to go pick it up" Niki said as his eyes were glued to the TV, I looked around the room and noticed a face was missing. "No show again?" I asked as I looked over at Jake, he knew how long I've been trying my best to get along with him. He shook his head with a disappointed look "No, but he'll be here later" he said with an uplifting smile. "Well guys, we're just gonna go pick up the food, we'll be back" i said as i threw Jake my keys and we went outside. Throughout the whole car ride we just sang our hearts out with the windows down and just vibed together. We got our food and then went back home, when we got there, I noticed a familiar black car.

Okay so just to let you guys know, Sunoo and I don't live with our parents, long story short, they were assholes to us, so whenever Heeseung got his own place, he invited all of us to live with him, Jungwon will be moving here in a couple of months due to his taekwondo finals, Niki has been living here since the beginning since his parents live in Japan, and he doesn't have any other family here, after that, Sunoo and I gladly accepted to come live here, Sunghoon moved here last month since he finished his figure skating, Jake came here the month after we moved in as well, which only leaves one person out. Jay has not accepted to live here yet, and it's probably because of me, i don't quite think he likes me... at all. But we all do live here, we have our small jobs on the side, and we all help pay for the house and stuff. It's honestly an amazing thing, I feel so comfortable living with the boys, even though they're a little chaotic sometimes, I'm used to it, and they're all really sweet to me, we're like family. So yeah, that's our little story.

"Jake, wait, can I ask you something?" I said as I stopped him right before he could open the front door. He worriedly looked at me, "Yes of course, what is it? Do you feel sick? Did you forget something?" I slightly laughed at how caring and sweet he was. "No, no, but, has Jay ever said anything?... you know... about me? He seems to hate me, and I don't think I've ever done anything to him" I said as I looked down at the ground. "Hey, hey, don't worry okay? You're amazing, Jay is just... hard to approach you know? He isn't even all that open to us as you think. Try not to stress over it too much, it'll all play out in the end okay?" He said as he pat my head slowly and opened the door for me. I gave him a small smile and went inside. "We're backkkkk" Jake screamed, and all of a sudden, the boys crowded around us like little puppies waiting to be fed. "So jay is finally here guys" Heeseung said as he pointed over at him. "Wassup" Jay said as he avoided my gaze. "So, what did you bring?" Niki said, looking for his tteokbokki, i rolled my eyes and handed it to him. "I got what you asked for dummy" "Yaaaay" he said as he grabbed his plate and went back to the living room. I handed Jay a plate and he completely ignored me. I was not going to accept that. I grabbed his wrist and made him hold the plate I was giving to him, I grabbed my own plate and rolled my eyes at him and walked away to sit next to Jake. "Let's watch a scary movie!" Sunoo said as he clapped his hands. All the guys were seated, except Jay, and the only seat open was next to me. It seemed like he hesitated, but he finally sat next to me. "Noo, come on, you know I hate scary movies" Jungwon whined as he looked at Sunoo with puppy eyes. Awww how can someone resist that? ):
Wait he's doing that to my brother, which literally doesn't give a frick. Sunoo rolled his eyes and played the movie without a second thought. As the movie played, I felt Jay shift uncomfortably in his seat. He seemed cold, I grabbed the blanket I had on, and placed it on him as well, and just like I predicted, he tried to remove it, but i held it down on his chest firmly, which he eventually gave up on trying to remove. I smiled proudly to myself, feeling him ease down a little. I don't know why he was always so hard headed. All of a sudden i felt a fast vibration next to my leg, which was coming from Jay's pockets. "Wait guys, I'll be right back" He said as he stood up and went outside to answer the call. Me being me, I stood up pretending to go get a glass of water, but i actually went to check on Jay. The guys don't know, but I've heard and seen him argue with someone over the phone, plenty of times, and most of those times, he leaves right after the call.

"No, I'm not going back, I can't take it anymore, let me enjoy time with my friends, you drain me, and you don't care, I'm tired of- No, i already said no- why? Fine, since my happiness never matters, okay... I'll be there, I guess, bye" He sounded so sad, stressed, frustrated, I couldn't just stand there and do nothing. I opened the door and stood in front of him. His eyes looked teary but as soon as he saw me, he tried to fix himself. "Are you okay?" I said as i looked at him worriedly and grabbed the blanket I had on and held it closer to me since it was pretty chilly outside, and Jay wasn't wearing a jacket. "Tell the guys I'm leaving" he said with a blank stare and walked to his car. "No you're not, let's go back inside, it's cold" i said as i walked closer to him. "What are you doing?" He said as he kept walking. I decided to do something I probably shouldn't have. "Just stop running away" i said as i went to him and wrapped my arms around his torso and placed my head on his back. I could tell he tensed up. "Please stay, you don't have to tell me what's wrong, just stay, the boys love having you around" i could tell his body calmed down a bit after those words left my mouth. All of a sudden i felt a tear fall on my hand, I turned him around, shocked, "Jay, what's wrong?" I said as i looked up at him worriedly. "Just stop okay? Stop trying to fix me, it won't work, the boys can't, and neither can you, just stay away from me, i don't need you" and with that he opened his car and left.

Well, so much for trying to help, but I won't give up, I know something was wrong, and I'm not going to go around telling the guys, because I know Jay wouldn't like that, but I'll help him, somehow, someday. I went back inside and all the boys were still glued on the movie. "Took you long for just a glass of water" Heeseung said as he looked over at me, making the rest of the boys look as well. "Wait, where's Jay?" Jake asked as he looked around. "Oh he said that um, something came up, but maybe he'll be here tomorrow" i said as i sipped my water and looked at the screen. They nodded and kept watching as well.
Look, I don't want to pressure Jay to tell me what's wrong, I really don't, I just want to help him, because there's clearly something wrong, i want him to find comfort, in somebody, anybody, it would be great if it was me, just because of the fact that he's a great human being, I know that he probably hates me, but he's always there for my brother, for the rest of the boys, and he's always helping them out, in anything, so I would just like to be there for him as well, because even if a person says they're okay, and that they don't need anyone, wether they like it or not, it's always good to have someone be there for you, to comfort you, to listen to you, to just even be by your side and accompany you. I want him to feel that.