was yours ; junhui

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dear jun,

this will probably my last letter to you.

i'm just gonna spill everything here.

remember when you said that i was the best thing that ever happened to you?

i felt the same.

but i knew that you didn't mean it.

yet i still believed your white lies.

be honest, you never cared for me, did you?

you just felt like flirting with me then.

and like a fool, i fell for you.

hard.

i know learned my lesson.

words cannot describe how inlove i am.

words cannot describe how heartbroken i am.

i want you back.

i know that i was sometimes a shitty person,

i admit that.

but did you really have to leave me like this?

did you really have to leave me when i need you the most?

when i felt the most vulnerable?

you weren't there when i needed you,

yet i was always there for you whenever you needed me.

maybe i got too ahead of myself then.

maybe i loved you too much,

and forgot to give love to myself.

why can't i find another guy like you?

anyways, now that's out of the way,

i wanted to say

thank you.

thank you for making me feel happy.

even if it's only a small amount of happiness, atleast i felt it with you.

i hope that you'll be happy.

even if it's not with me.

i also hope that you'll not hurt your new girlfriend,

like the way you hurt me.

take care of her okay?

and don't forget to take care of yourself first.

don't worry about me,

  i'll be gone soon.

i can handle myself.

i love you.

thank you for setting me free.

was yours,
d.

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