the clock ticks reminding life goes on
ceiling with fan that rotates shows motion
while i sit here motionless
eyes holding all the emotions of my heart
heart holding all the pain from this world
and this emotion escapes my eyes
though not with permission but it escapes
unlike me.
yeah i can hear my heartbeat
it pounds almost screaming to me
but im glad, for it beats.
cheeks stained in tears
tears that were the emotion i always hide
"you're going to be fine" pops on my screen
i wish for it to be true in my head
everything goes. but sadness doesn't.
its the always with you partner
though one might never ask for this one
"what's your favourite colour?" its blue.
my portrait of life is surely painted in that hue.
grey cloud rumbles as loud as they can get
the rain has come here to meet
it pours heavily while my tears dry out
looks like the clouds want to cry out
never had the rain made me sad before
but today seems different
its all grey, gloomy and dismal
this adds up to the grey hue of my day
its monotonous i must say.
'is this how people see me', i think
the already miserable condition worsens
as the nightmares of past flashes in my head
if this is a war then i won't win,
that does not prevent me from trying to win
clouds grumbles as if agreeing to me
and i give it a melancholic sigh
theres a burning sensation in my eye
theyre mirrors of my heart
reflecting all thats buried deep inside
cried alot but still not fully empty
i felt hollow even with grief filled in me
i wipe off these diamonds of light
though no one here knows it's worth.
i try to sleep but my head is cluttered
cluttered with thoughts or totally blank?
but i could not answer to that.
became a wantwit because of melancholy
so sorrowful that i dont understand me
its not something new to feel
the next day might bring me joy and happiness
that was all i could say for myself to heal.
