ᴄʟᴏsᴇ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ☁︎ ʜᴜᴀɴɢ ʀᴇɴᴊᴜɴ

2.1

Monday.
eunha didn't know what to expect that day. her spirits had been low ever since the day before when she found out that renjun and minsu hung out without him telling her.

'I'm just his friend. he doesn't have to tell me everything'
'he tells me everything, though..'
'maybe he forgot..'
'why am I hurt? i mean nothing to him anyways'

she sighed. a headache crept up on her from the countless negative thoughts in her mind. she even looked miserable.

she did tell herself that there'd be a big possibility that renjun and minsu had made it official. she told herself to put on a smile for them and be happy. but why did all the color drain from her face when she saw their intertwined hands in the hallway?
why did her heart drop?

"eun!" he called out to the girl who was spacing out.

the way he said his name with so much emotion laced in his tone. if only love was one of them.

"eun, you okay?" he waved his hand in front of her face, snapping her out of her bubble of thoughts
"huh? oh yeah.. hey jun" she gave him a half-hearted smile
"you okay? you look like shit" he chuckled
"i..uh you know, just stayed up all night again"
he sighed, "you should take care of yourself, idiot! sleep on time and eat well. you're all bones these days!"

'stop saying things that make me think you care about me'

"i-i will.."

minsu joined renjun's side after talking to her own friend and smiled at eunha
"hi! I'm minsu, I'm supposing you're eunha?"
"yeah, nice to meet you" she nodded

"actually eun, we have news" renjun began shyly

'oh no'

"we're official!" they beamed

it took her a while to gather her thoughts and reply to the two
"that's uh- that's great! I'm so happy for you guys.. you look good together"

and they did.
and she hated it.

'why couldn't he love me back?'

✈︎

"where's eunha?" mark asked, looking around the lunch table.

everyone was seated there together, minsu had taken eunha's seat. haein was there too but she was conversing with jeno who she had grown close to.

"eun said she wanted to catch up on a few things so she's at the library" haein said and gave the boy a tight-lipped smile

"she's doing that again" donghyuck sighed
"I'm a little lost, doing what?" minsu asked

"she spends most of her lunch breaks in the library, studying. she doesn't eat and studies as if she doesn't know anything at all. it's unhealthy but she doesn't listen to any of us" renjun explained with a look of worry on his face

"she works really hard for school and it pays off too. but i wish she'd focus on herself too, she's a little selfless" jaemin said, "when we first became friends with renjun, she didn't say anything around us. it took her some time to open up to us"

"i hope noona's fine, though" chenle sighed, "she looked really pale this morning."

"i just hope she notices she's neglecting herself trying to satisfy others, and actually does something about it" haein said, chewing on the inside of her cheeks

"i don't want the only mature person here besides me to suffer from the academic stress" jisung huffed and haechan widened his eyes and pointed an accusing finger at the younger

"are you looking down at us right now?!"

✈︎

hae bae

you okay?

i wanna cry.

it's okay eun <3
the boys are worried about you

is he also worried?

of course he is!
he's your best friend.. who
you just so happen to like

why tho
why would he care for
me when he doesn't even
like me
he's leading me on
i hate it i hate it i hate it
i hate it all
i hate him
i hate that i love him
i hate that he doesn't
love me back
i hate that I'm not good enough for
him
i hate that I'll never be close to
being enough for him
why is it so unfair
why did i have to like him when i
knew i didn't have a chance

eun don't lose hope
there are so many other
amazing people.

but they're not him
and i want him
and there's no hope left
she makes him happy
i won't lie, i hate that she makes
him happy too.
do i not?

bby don't be so hard on yourself
you're amazing.
you're so special eunha
you make so many people happy
i know it's hard to move on
but good things take time
you don't know what would
happen in the future
maybe things will work out

my ass

your ass kinda cute tho ngl

shut up you're making
me smile and I'm trying to be
sad

awh i made you smile!
so babigorl ;}
wanna go on a date w me ;}

no
my schedule is full

gurl wha- 👁️👄👁️

i have crying to do

kim eunha what the fuck

☁︎
:(
as I've said before
DATE ME EUNHA BOYS ARE STUPID